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♥ Saturday, July 30, 2005♥

*`*`*`*`A late and Tiring Saturday*`*`*`*

Had actually planning tO go.. Malaysia shopping again..but then expected it rain.. but never expect it rained until so late still don't want to stop at all.. so the whole day is like I have to stay home and surf net again.. doing what? same thing.. doing something in the blogging.. editing the template... but don't know why is like I have spoilt the whole template liao.. loading also have become very slow.. I really got scare of it.. that I Don't know what to do with it...can anyone help me with it..? My tagging also have got problem with the viewing.. is it the network problem? or my tagging have gone already?? what happened to the network?? where has it gone to..? feel like changing the whole sickening skin to a brand new blogskin again..but can't find anything that I like it at all...

Hmm.. so bOred that Dear Dear have finally bring me out to Marina Square there.. *haha* nothing can stop me from going anywhere and anytime... When we have reached there... of cos go there shopping while the shops are still open.. then finally after a long walk.. I am able to buy one pc of clothing.. and Dear Dear so nice.. Paid it for me without me telling him to.. *haha* cOs he knOw that I will ask him pay de.. *isn't it so*..? but actually I wanted to buy Dwalf hamster instead. but he dun want to buy it for me.. and said he rather buy the clothes for me..so.. better than nothing.. *sob sob*.. after that as usual we have went to Marina Bay there played games. but so sad.. my favourite machine have been removed..? there nothing for me to play there.. and damn.. i have wasted $11 for catching the bear for nothing.. so sad.. wasted so much... but I get nothing.. *haiz*.. as it was getting late, we also dun wish to waste the time there.. then he bring me to Geylang there for durians.. and u can imagine.. hw crowded can it be.. alot of peoples just sitting there eating lots of durians too. *haha* I tot we are the only funny couples went to eat alone..*chey* finally .. we went home with a very full stomach.. *hehe*

A Loves Philosophily found while I am surfing the net....

It Lies not in our power to love and hate
For will in us is overruled by fate
When two are stripped, long era are the course begin
We wished that one should love, the other win
And we especially do we affect
of two gold ingots, like in each respect
The reason no man knows; let it suffice
What we behold is censured by our eyes
Where both deliberate; the love is slight
Who ever loved; that love not at first sight




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:48 PM



♥ Friday, July 29, 2005♥

*`*`*`* A boring night ended*`*`*`*

Hmm... what did i do the whole day today..? well.. at work.. surfing net... msning... hmm.. as well as doing some revising on my schoolwork as well...yes.. using the working time to do my personal things.. *haha* rather than sitting down there and do nothing instead.. suddenly don't know why so busy at the last minute when I going to knock off.. end up stayed a little bit late in the office... do finished up everything before leaving so sian.. thought can leave on the dot lei.. *haiz* well well... When I am on my way to school.. thinking of going to skip lesson and go Zouks.. but then thinking here and there... hmm.. time don't match.. so rush here and there.. so decided not to go in the end... stressed me when I tot of my exams as well.. hmm.. finally i have reached the classroom.. just quietly sit there busy writing notes. and not think of anything.. Lesson ended... go home and wait for Dear Dear to come liao.

Staying home on Friday Night.. can you believe it..? hmm.. i din go anywhere at all... well... Though have thought of going Zouks with my ex-colleagues... cos there are Pioneer event holding there.. sO nIce of Shan have called to ask me last night whether I want to go anot.. I was abit tempted and been thinking whether i want anot until today hearing so many of my close friends going too.. makes me even more like going.. final decision is..as mentioned above... *hehe*.. there are many chances to go out with them next time.. so don't want to make myself so busy running like mad. *haiz... finally see my salary inside the bank liao.. but so fast going to broke again .. got so many debts gonna clear off.. so sian... expenses so high and why is that so..? the more you earn the more you have to take out.. so sian.. see my bank accout.. so pathetic de.. getting more and more scare.. how to save alot..for the future..? for it coming soon...




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:30 PM



♥ Thursday, July 28, 2005♥

*`*`*`*A pIss off day In the office*`*`*`*

Hmm.. this day really don't feel good staying in the office whole day... feel so noisy..like market.. cannot stand the people here why can talk like nobody business.. or act like in the quiet office.. to me local concept are still different.. somehow still really can't get used to it.. haiz.. *why my buttock so itch* change company for what la.. now also can't blame no one liao le... anyhow... now have alot of jobs on hand.. it seems like everything have already been fixed of what I am going to do everyday.. no self me at all.. so sick of this feeling sometimes..

hmm.. lunch time was really great for me.. cos Feng came to my office here and find me for lunch before he go work. and this is also the first time he came to find me.. hmm.. i think really once in a blue moon then can see another time.. however we also never go anyway far.. cos time was really very rush for him.. as usual we went to Bugis for lunch lo... after that he have to go for work liao.. time really past so fast.. I also sick to go back work after that... no choice.. die also must die in the office...

then this time was really even more sickening because someone was ordering me to do things.. simply pissed me off.. "hey this is buyer job" u have to go find out yourself... if you think there anything wrong.. we can hold a meeting.. wow.. when I heard it..suddenly I am on Fire..thinking I am still new here for only 2 months.. she bully me.. feel like gives her a box and asked her go back sleep.. haiz.. but where have my courage gone to? i can't act like a villain here.. one day one letter throw liao.. everything now noted in my heart..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 1:58 PM



♥ Wednesday, July 27, 2005♥

*`*`*`*Gathering at Jurong Point*`*`*`*

Hmm.. this Tuesday Night... After work was kinda a relaxed day for me... hmm.. when work done.. I quickly packed bag go home only.. everything also don't wish to care lo... Then while wating for Yuting to come and meet me at the Lavender MRT... I saw.. a guy.. But you knOw la.. my damn stupid poor eyesight.. couldn't see anything when I don't wear Spec... sO i Couldn't be sure whether I really have saw him.. and also don't know whether he have see me anot.. or he can't remember me ? I also not sure.. But the way he walked and the styles.. really resembled a guy whom was the same ITE with me few years back.. Whom I always wanna see.... really made me wondered whether he was the one... is it him?? I really don't know.. however Yuting also arrived.. and followed by Xingyu.. headed back to JUrong Point and have dinner together... at the Mini Japanese restaurant.. after that they companied me shopped awhile..almost till 8pm.. then they headed home.. and not long... Lida was actually walking behind me liao.. so I am not left alone for very long.. then even later, Shuhui, Weiqiang and Bengkhoon have also arrived and gathered at Jurong Point together with me.. fOr a discussIon.. on what?? "chalet" .... haha... we people still organise a chalet at this time.. well.. cos it kinda difficult for so many of us to organise a trip for 3 days.... sO just gather together somewhere in Singapore.. Next time if we have the chance, then we will organise a Malaysia Trip.. ok.. I am sure it will be very nice and fun for all..you know what ... we arrange to meet at 8pm.. and I never expect that I will sit till so late about 11pm+ then reached home.. can imagined.. there are so much crappy things to chat.. that still reluctant to go home.. even though they know I really looked very tired le.. but still can continue sitting down.. however I also ok with it.. anyway it so near to my house.. so long can reached home before 12am... *haha*.. .

Haiz.. for the sad thing now is.. does anyone know what had happened to my Tag board?? since yesterday I am not able to view anything at all.. I also don't know why.. I never done anything to it.. not edit anything... how come I still can't see anything on it de..? my friend left me tags.. I also can't view it anymore.. can anyone answer to my quiries.. and help me to solve my tagging?? I really feel so sad now.. *sOb sOb* :~~(




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:58 PM



♥ Monday, July 25, 2005♥

*`*`*`* My Dear Grandma 60++ years old Birthday*`*`*`*

Hmm.. So fast it another year.. My Grandma and as well as my Mummy Birthday fall on the same day.. 24th July.. so every time I have to buy 2 present on this day for both of them.. *hehe*... always got the celebration.. really buy until out of ideas liao le.. sO both also have bought them a pair of earing each. *haha* lame present.. but really no more ideas le.. nevertheles.. only hope that they will like it.. cos it merely our thoughts bought by Dear & me. *bleah*.. finally it dinner tIme liao le.. went to the Thai Food restaurant was really full of people that even we have booked the place also no use.. cos no reservation make at all.. haiz.. so we have to wait for half an hour before we can start to eat lo.. somehow when i eat the food.. i don't find it that tasty as it can be to make so many people waiting for the their turns to eat.. *haha* ok ok only lo.. after the dinner, we also sang song for grandma and cutting cakes with all her grandchildren.. *heehee*.. can see she really enjoyed the family warmth given to her.. but as time goes by.. her age grown but she still very young looking.. Loves Grandma so much.. that will never want to miss the chance to be with her.. *bleah*.. =P




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:56 PM



♥ Sunday, July 24, 2005♥

*`*`*`* My MalaySia Outing again*`*`*`*

On thIs day.. As usual.. I have went to Malaysia with my dear again and this time round.. we are not alone.. cos my primary schoolmate Christina and her Dear also have went with us.. so happy. At least we have companion each.. not that bored just the two of us.. we met about 1pm and then travelled in together.. as usual this timing sure would jammed a little bit. but luckily the waiting was not very long either.. and most importantly..the weather also not hot at all lo.. so wait liao.. also not that desperate.. *haha*.. it was also sizzling when we travelled on the way in.. but luckily we manage to park the bike just before the rain fall heavily above our head and went to Pizza Hut for our lunch.. after that we went to City Square to catch a Movie called "Six(Thai), Horror show somemore.. *haha* not that terrifying at all.. my friend said she all the way closed her eyes.. so don't even know how exciting the show can be.. *aiyo* she really timid until like that.. I thought got boyfriend went with her.. can protect her.. then she won't be scare le.. but ? *haiz* next time can't watch horror show with her liao.. after the show.. we went to Holiday Plaza.. and bought some DVD back.. *haha*.. cos you know de la.. *damn cheap* lo.. haha.. but only bought a few pieces.. dare not bring back toO much..then we have nothing much to do there.. so we all decided to head back without having dinner cos all of us not hungry at all.. after we have reach Singapore.. we stop at the road side and chit chat for 1hr plus.. yet still can't decide where to go at all.. so final decision was.. go home instead... *Christina*.. I think next time we better plan outing to Malaysia after that also plan see where can we go after that... otherwise it really so wasted to go home early on Saturday.. when the night is still so young.. ok? haha..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:30 PM



♥ Saturday, July 23, 2005♥

*`*`*`*My Hard tIme cOmIng agaIn*`*`*`*

Hmm.. thInking of this moment.. I feel so Sian and Stress up ah... cOs my exams coming soon in this 2 months time..? 2 months only..? got enought time to study anot..? I can say.. nope.. cOs I have got alot to gO thru especially those subjects which I have failed in the first semester..**shy** because of the new conversion to new syllabus... all those old syllabus have to clear by the Month of March.. otherwise I have to retake the subjects again.. since I choose not to.. So I have to work extremely hard to pass the subjects..*God.. Please Help me ah* ... waIt a minute.. whO's my God..? who gonna help me..? *haha*... hmm... I am sure got help de.. I just have tO put in more effort in practising and stOp gOing out every now and then.... Hmm***Must control myself this time.... endure for 2 months only lei.. can??? .. after the exams on Oct.... I can jolly well go enjoy again... Hmm.. *might ask Dear tO plan a trIp fOr my destress Break out.......... otherwIse I will gO crazy... sOmehow been feeling quite stress and tired thinking alot of things going thru my braIn.. been sOrting and thinking what I really want from myself..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 12:30 AM



♥ Wednesday, July 20, 2005♥

*`*`*`* A rainy day makes me yawn*`*`*`*

today only Tuesday.. and somemore it Rainy day.. made one so sian so sleepy.. haiz... why the life here still as boring as ever de..? find nothing challenging to do ... no fighting spirit at all de.. hmm.. I find myself like very useless in this line.. hmm.. seems like can't do anything for them.. or is it.. the job here just too easy for me to handle.. *haha* no satisfaction here at all.. have such thinking that I feel like going to change another better job which I will like it.. and most importantly will be.. much more nearer to me alot alot.. otherwise everyday come to work just by the travelling itself take up for 1 hour.. have to wake up so early everyday and end up not enough sleep de... feel tired and no moral to come work at all.. so no point.. even meet up with suppliers oso nothing much cos i feel that I don't have anything to talk to them either... Save me and get me out from here..

Hmm.. have just saw Jo Blog's Cheers me up.. after reading her long story.. finally have saw my name inside.. so glad she remember my birthday and wished me too.. haha.. *Thanks "Jo" for remembered my Birthday ya*.. I have saw it le..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:15 AM



♥ Tuesday, July 19, 2005♥

*`*`*`*A Penny fOr my thOughts*`*`*`*

Why time can change one person easily..? so fast and sudden that hardly give someone enough time to think over what she really want.. and everything just condemmned to her... when things are still so sweet and fresh.. suddenly.. now just said.. it time... everything should be over... shouldnt hold on to it anymore... She know that she can't have everything she want nor she can give what others hope from her.. she feel so frightened.. it like she no longer be herself anymore she feel being maniputed by people... they always wanna to have a control over her.. they can;t let her have her own thinking and doing what she really wish to do.. she can't be herself and have everything of her own... (^x^) She have to shared.. her time.. her thinking and everything with the people who wanna manipute her.. This feeling make her feel so scare and heavy in her... She hate it.... She really hate it....sometimes she even wondered.. she tot she have her bf to loves her so much.. she so happy blissed.. but sometimes it isn't what she reali thought of.. and there are times... she feel that she shouldnt be so blessed.. and let her be alone instead... she can't even know whether she can be able to settle down.. when she thought she will be able to.. but no one believe her that she can do it..always have trashed all her dreams and pouring cold water on her... she felt so sad... but the person who don't believe her was actually her own boyfriend.... who always keep putting her off....... and whenever she is angry... but she just couldn't and not able to explain herself.. cos she know.. no one will ever believe her....agony and miserable thinking...she wanna be alone.... she wish to be alone..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 1:10 AM



♥ Saturday, July 16, 2005♥

*`*`*`* My Belated Birthday surprIse*`*`*`*

nOw is already morning 2am.. there something which really made me unforgettable.. sO I want tO quickly write the feeling I have in me now before it gone... today I have to attend lesson.. sO guess what..? when the lesson have ended... Feng waiting downstair for me .. saying he will be meeting me awhile.. before he booked in camp.... serving his 2 weeks reservist ... *haha* I really never expect that there will have ever one day he will fetch me home from school at 930pm.. cos of his working time.. he hardly have the chance to do so de.. unless.. like this time now lo....*haha*...therefore.... when I meet up up with him... he then showed me the flower on his hand and give to me.. *shock*.. I was reali shock that he came to find me just to wish me a belated birthday... other than that we have went to the bird park there... cos he up to his mischief again.. *hmm.. guess wat..? he took out 1 slice of Blackberries Cake and sang *Happy Birthday* song to me...at that kind of sparkling lightning with the car shine here and there to create the kind of romantic atmospher... I was reali moved by him.... But I can't cry at all.. Don't know why.. there no way I have the tears to shed de...? my eyes very dry de... but very shy.. *haha*... really have let him surprise me.. *sweet smIle*.. everything was still so fresh and sweetening in my heart... *haha*.. I guess.. this year was really the most romantic years to spent my birthday.. *haha*... Thank you so much Feng..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:30 PM



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*`*`*`* Song which sang my heart word*`*`*`*

Baby i love u and i'll never let u go but if i have to boy i think that u should know all the love we made can never be erasedand i promise you that you will never be replacedbaby i love you and i'll never let you go but if i have to boy i think that you should know all the love we made can never be erased and i promise you that you will never be replaced...i love you yes i do..i'll be with you as long as you want me too until the end of time from the day i met you i know we've be together and now i know i wanna be with you forever..I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses..I can say i'm truly happy to the same you've made me think i'll die and live my life hesitate.. There's never been no doubt in my mind that i'll regret ever having you by my side but if the day come that i'll have to let you go..I think that something I should probably let you know with everything that i spent with you then i will miss you cause i'm happy that i have you at all..i feel for you yes i doi'll be with you as long as you want me to until the end of time.




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:10 PM



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*`*`*`* Jolin appreciation words*`*`*`*

Hi guys.. those who have spent the moments with me on my Birthday.. I want to tell you .. that you people have really made my day so wonderful... so happy.. and unforgettable.. esp with all the efforts, surprise, time and everyday just wanna make all to enjoyed the whole nights which is really a sweet memories to me.. I would like to really thanks you all with the bottom of my heart.. and those sweet and expensive gifts delivered to my hands.... regardless of what the gifts is.. it still like a heavenly gift to me... which u all have give.... what my wish for the night... that is.. there will have no ending of such enjoyable nights and gathering with all of you..


There no world like this without you people walking into my life.. *muack*





*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:30 AM



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*`*`*`* My Birthday have over le ma? *`*`*`*

*haha* today already the July 15.. my birthday have really over on this day when the clock struck 12am last night... that was cool and enjoyable night which I have spent with my buddies... they were really so sweet.. *haha*.. after work... was the most relieved mood I really have cos I know it time for me to get out of the workplace fast and then went to meet up with them.. As usual I will meet up with Yuting.. and quicky travelled to Suntec just for the sake of going to play those Tigam Fare.. *sad* who knows...? the whole fare have gone liao?? in front of us.. just an empty ground.. no more crowds anymore.. nevertheless.. we are still able to get something out of it.. is to.. went to the collection shop and manage to buy a set of figurine of our own.. and of cos sure spent one whole amout to get the figurine. *bleah* wasting alot of money on such things le.. still not enough lei.. we went to play tigam again.. and then hor.. almost have got the whole set except for one more doll... but too bad.. dare not really played.. too risky le.. somemore .. it always like that de.. out of all the 6 figures.. there sure one to be the most ugly de.. so heng.. I din manage to get the ugly one.. *haha* so I can forsake tat.. hmm.. as usual.. sure will spent the money to get extra one.. so Yuting will always be there with me.. can sell it to her..*haha*. Yes Ting.. this is Joan.. *Your good friend ma* wahaha* =P

Then Xingyu turned up and meet up with us.. and also hor.. another surprise for me again... other than senting the flowers and bear to my office.. he oso give me a bag contain bikini and the last Binchotan to collect my whole set of collection le.. *haha*... really very happy of what he have did.. and u know ma?? all these are his first time giving me.... the first time surprise he created for me.. (silly boy)

Well after that almost all of us have turned up le.. so can start to have our dinner.. cos we are really very hungry le.. waiting for Angie and Saru.. hmm.. the latecomers..? *haha* but they are very lucky lo.. when the food arrives, they just in time to start it with us.. then we have a chat over the dinner.. after that we went to Millenium walk there (Zee 10) for a chill out...then they have surprIse for me.. cos they had went to arrange for the whole lot of people to celebrate birthday for me .. haha.. then we cut cake and etc.. taken alot of pics. so shy.. after that it almost time to go home soon... I went to open up all the presents in front of them.. each time opened each one.. my heart pumped fast.. cos feel shy and eager to see what is inside.. hmm.. So sweet... haha.. then hor.. Kenneth..Thank you so much... for treating us nice cold beer and drinks.. he footed the bill and then sent us all back home le.... *`*`*`* Night ended*`*`*`*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:20 AM



♥ Friday, July 15, 2005♥

*`*`*`* My Birthday*`*`*`*

On this day is the 14 July 2005, it my Birthday falling on the actual day lei? you knOw ma? *haha* the most damn thing is that.. I just started my new wOrk at new wOrkplace.. sO I don't have the leave tO get a rest fOr my Big Day.. *haha*.. well it ok la.. anyway me alOne rest at hOme withOut my Dear nor any frIends with me... Rest le alsO nO pOint, might as well cOme work lo.. after that at night gonna meet My 3 Best girlfriend fOr dInners and 2 mR nIce guys.. YutIng, AngIe, Katherine, Kenneth & XY... to eat dinner at the Ricetable located at Suntec.. *wow*.. the day really sO sIan.. can't waIt fOr the day to end sOOn.. then I can go enjOy after work le.. now on hand really a lot of damn tedious work tO do.. really don't have the mOOd tO do anything either... * haha*.. thInking of I am gOing tO do and talk later when I see them.

My fIrst surPrse of the day..

*`*`*made me feel sO touCh, happy and guilty*`*`*

At12pm... I received delivery from a flower shOp sending a bouquet of flowers.. I thOught who is the sender.. But I never expect the sender to be my Own Dear Dear.. RaymOnd.. he really have made me so surprIse.. cOs we have have been tOgether for 5years and he have never ever do such things nor give me any flowers at all.. haha.. tHIs is really his first time after all these years.. luckily I never less loves him.. *haha*.. but wat makes me guilty is that I have actually scolded him yesterday nght because of some small misunderstanding and even said break up to hIm.. *haha*.. he must be feeling very sad.. but now everything have been cleared and we also have patched back.. * I almost drop tears* now eyes have become watery staring at the Flowers. . (@*@) ...then suddenly someone have told me.. that flowers which given to u by Your Dear will have to be disposed when the flowers have died. as it will crash as yr symbol for the love will also die... when I heard that.. I was really very sad and yet so reluntant to throw away the first bouquet which Dear have give to me... can anyone tell me? what can I do? I reali want to keep the flowers.

My 2nd surPrise of the day..

*`*`*never expected to be him *`*`*

When I am out for lunch.... a man called me saying can i acknowledge the delivery of my present.. which made me shoick again..... how come another more coming.. who is the sender and etc.. *haha.. when I cOme back after lunch..already beIng accepted by Other and leave It on the chair.. a bear.. sitting On my chair.. holding a white rOses.. but how cOme it white de..? *haha*.. cOmes with a FerrOr rocher as well.. hmm.. sO it Chen XingYu who have give me the surprIse. cos we are meeting later together le.. yet.. he still go and take the effort to give me such a surprIse.. Thank you very much to have brIghtened my day.. \(^_^)/




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 1:45 AM



♥ Tuesday, July 12, 2005♥


*`*`*`* A sudden thOught in My Mind*`*`*`*

Suddenly this thought came into my mind.. thinking that.... a person who wanna think of having the both world... somehow it still impossible tO have the bOth world..no matter how hard One persOn have trIed tO dO It.. end uP It stIll a kInd of hurt tO bOth of them.. but why there are guys always like to pamper you, coax you and wanna make You feel sO impOrtant when You are with them.. despite they have their own girlfriend.. yet they still wanna have Other chOice in their life.. end up all of them will suffer.. *sob sob*..In this point.. make me feel that.. actually if you never get close to them.. nOne of thIs will happen at all.... In such game.. One will have tO withdraw.. cos usually.. the One who get Involve in a 3rd party relatIonshIp wIll be the One tO get hurt and end up.. lOsIng her truly lOves as well... if I knOw hOw tO thInk of thIs .. ThIs thIng will not be happenIng tO me neIther wIll I let myself gettIng hurt In the end..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 7:27 AM



♥ Sunday, July 10, 2005♥

*`*`*`* The mOments sPent wth Ray*`*`*`*

On Saturday 9th July 2005, was a day which I have sPent my bIrthay In advance with my Dear Dear.. he was very nice.. as usual we have spent the whole weekend together wherever we have go.. On that day ... he was specially very nice tO me.. bringing me to Orchard there WindOw shOppIng and then when it time fOr dInner at the ParkrOyal Hotel Cafe.. we quIckly rushed there.. hOwever when we have reached there.. we saw the whole cafe full of peOple.. we thOught.. luckily we have bOOk a table in advance.. sO very fast we have lead tO our table... just sIt dOwn there and enjoyed takIng the fOOd.. *haha* yUm Yum* . then thIs day was really specIal.. the dInner comes with a complimentary red wIne as well.. *haha* sO romantIc. when both of us said cheers tO each other...we really have a long tIme sItting there grappIng a lOt Of fOOd tO eat.. *haha* must eat tIll it really wOrth the mOney then can bIll.. *hehe*.. After the dInner, YutIng sms me.. sayIng she is alone at Plaza Singapore.. sO Ray oso be the Good guy bring me there to meet up with her, companied her for awhile, shopping, chit chat till her friend arrives.. we then leave them.. and headed tO Marina Bay there tO play games.. fInally the nIght over.. and both of us just headed hOme happIly. *happy happy*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:10 PM



♥ Thursday, July 7, 2005♥

*`*`*`* Meeting Up fOr bOwlIng and DInner*`*`*`*

oN this day (Thursday) I meet Xingyu at Cityhall.. sO nice Of him went tO buy sUshi fOr me tO fill my stomach.. cOs i was sO hungry as I never have my lunch earlier.. haha.. well.. I went tO meet Jo, Violet, Ken & XingyU fOr a bOwling session training but nOt fOr me lo.. cOs thOse 4 persOn abOve have gOt tOurnament cOming uP On this Sat.. sO I went with them fOr Out of fun.. haha...jOined fOr the fUn ma.. aLways like tO be extra de.. *sOB* anyway we still enjOyed alOt.. we 3 gals like fighting against the 2 guys but why Only tOOK 2 pics ?? whY never tOOk with gUYs tOgether..? hmm.. play until fOrget tO take sOme pictures as well le.. wasTed .. bring camera alOng oso never taKe.. haha.. *^_^ anyway here hOping yOu gUys can win sOmething from the games ok.. got the chance de.. have faith in yOUrselves ok.. nO prizes gOt the vOucher Oso gOod la.. u all enjOyed the games which I am nOt able tO do sO after the 4 years liaO.. sO sad.. *crying* hmm.. after the game we have steambOat f Or dinner. *haha* all Of us like was sO clumsy here and the re.. cOs all need tO dO the cOoking Ourselves.. Only have limited plates and bOwls tO take the fOOd.. everythng like feel sO dirty all Over.. *yuck*.. but still we enjOyed chatting over the dinner...thOu we all eaten quite less Of the fOod.. sO nOt worth the mOney at all.. hehe..sOmemOre we can even tALks abOut *shiting* matter over the dinner taBle.. ? haha.. *disgUsting*.. u never see hOw lOud we have laughed Out becauSe of that Saru.. *funny*...u'll wOndered hOw cOme gOt such Saru.. sO entertaining One lO.. *haha*.. the night ended qUite late le.. sO as usual Saru have tO send us all hOme again.. and never change I always the last tO reach hOme sO late de.. haz.. sO sleepy.. *yawn*.....




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:13 PM



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*`*`*`*Fiesta gaThering fOr my birthday 2005*`*`*`*



Wednesday night was the time I am lOOking forward tO meet the buddies up fOr KTV session organise by Weiqiang.. it actUally meant tO give me a sUrprise fOr my bIrthday celebration. afTer halfway thru the lessOn.. quickly went Off and happily head tO the Ktv...*phew* finally able tO reach befOre 10pm.. but never see Lida arOund cOs suppOsed tO have 5 Of us.. but heard that he was tOO sick tO jOin us.. sO we alL were thinkng.. hmm... *eyes lOOkng at the sPace* whether he s faking... * wahahha* =), nevertheless sTill hOpe that he s recOVery sOOn ba.. *smile*.. sO enjOyed quite a few hOurs which is really mOre than enOugh for my stOmach tO suffered.. haha.. *arrghhh* we All just sang the heart away.. till Shuhui jioed me gO tOilet.. and when cOme back, BengKhOON.. hOlding a cake On his hand and carried tO my side with all Of them singing Birthday sOng alOud.. sO sweet & tOUched.. *crying*.. I knew there were aLready up tO mischief when I saw the caKe lying there.. *haha* but dOn't want tO expOse them cOs I wanna keep tHe kind Of effOrt which they have put in. *bleah =P* tHen we all jUst enjOyed takng pic.. makng fUn Of each Other.. and eTc.. then excitment mOment, we sure knew we cannOt fnshed everytime just by the 4 Of us.. sO cheeKy ideas cOming up with sOme games.. *lOser gOnna gObble up everything* haha... and I think ..... the persOn whO the big lOser was BengKhOOn cOs he was kanna snocked and shivering away. being disgusted by the Cake & drink. finally the night ended.. sO fast... we all gOng our seperate way hOme.. gOing hOme wth BengKhOOn.. *sO sweet of him* wanna send me tO my dOor lei.. *surprise* don't think last time he ever gOt think of doing this tO me le..? has he finally grOwn up? **hehe** ..but in the end I dO nOt want tO trOuble hm lO cOs he Oso ve tO wake up up in the early mOrning. better gO hOme sOOn.. but sOmehOw. his sms still traveL tO my phOne asking fOr my safety hOme anOt... *shy* ^ _ ^ .. haha..thanks fOr his cOncern.. and here oso wish tO say a LOUD THANKS tO you peOple fOr creating ths precious nIght fOr me.. and wish tO hug u aLL real tighty.. *haha

* *`*`*`*`*nOt tO fOrget*`*`*`*`*

I have received a birthday card frOm a very lOng lasting best girlfriend.. *huiting*.. this girl fOrever sO sweet de.. never ever failed tO send any greeting card tO me.. (which she have handmade herself de) *cute*.. she made me feel sO gulty.. cOs I am nOt as thOughtful as she is lO.. *hahaha* but gOOd s that have never fOrget her neither her birthday at all.. *hehe* hOwever.. Huiting .. tHanks fOr the wishes and the card... *bleah* have already sticked On the wall.. *hehe*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:33 PM



♥ Wednesday, July 6, 2005♥

*`*`*`*Receive tReat & PreSent*`*`*`*

oN this Tuesday I was very HapPy lOOking fOrward fOr a dinner treat from Tan E.H.. haha..we arrange tO meet up at City Hall.. and yOu knOw what..? he have intend tO prepare a Birthday gift fOr me..? sO when we have met uP.. he went tO chOOse a gift fOr me which is average expensive and unique 3 hearted silver chain.. it sO special lOOking.. haha.. will take a pic and displayed t.. *wait* So nice of him.. giving me a presEnt & a dinner treat as well.. *smile*..... tHen we have dinner at the "Imperial Resturant" chinese fOOd.. *yUmmy* sUmptOus dinner... in retUrned... I buy him a drink at the "CalifOrnia Bistro".. aT there we jUst drink tO our cOntent.. then.. becaUse Of the "OlymPic cOmpetition" was tHe final day.. we get tO watch the fireworks.. just abOve our head.. sO near tO our eyesight.. * am thinking it be nice if this was viewing with my Dear Dear instead*.. the view everything was sO rOmantic but of cOs not when my Dear Dear is nOt arOund that tOo bad lO.. finaLly it time tO gO hOme.. I was reallY sO tired.. that I realIy can sleep the whOle jOurney back..

*`*`*`*`*`*`cOlOurfUl night ended*`*`*`*`*`*`*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:58 PM



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*`*`*`* A slOw mOvng Tuesday*`*`*`*

A very sian Tuesday... hOw cOme tOday sO diffcult tO wait fOr the knOck Off time tO arrives de? dOnt knOw what wrOng with tHe way Of wOrking here..? t seems like everything nOt gOing smOOth fOr me.. just even when lunch time wanna rest awhile like alsO gOt a bIg prOblem lei.. what am I here fOr lei? hOw cOme the bad feeling cOme back again which I have experience it On the 1st day Of wOrk.. ? I felt it sO nOisy arOund my ears and surrOunding like a wet market. yet I can't see what actuaiLy they are doing.. then what my actual jOb scOpe lei? Imagine hOw i kill my stupid lame time here..? drInk cOffee in tHe mOrning everyday which I never used tO do sO in the past.. and then waiting fOr the lUnch hOur tO escape instead Of sitting dOwn here until my damn tummy alsO have cOme out bigger and bigger.. *kaOz* after that again anOther lame timing as in 3pm.. dO what? drink tea lO.. eat titbit tO kill tHe time away.. thE life here damn gOod can eat and eat mOst Of the time until my figure gOne liao.. anyOne want.. caN try tHe life here? *bleah =P* wow lau.. anOther 1hr and 30mins tO go.. just finish my tea liao.. *glupz* nOw have tO fake bUsy again.. sO tiring leI.. sUch life... dOing aLL this thing msnng whOle day lOng, surf internet, until I reaLly scared.. * ^ x ^ * suDdenly think of terrifying feeling on my lips when I tOuched it.. the kind oF pain very scary.. I am scare.. *finaLiy.... 30mins more tO gO... quick cOme leI... can't wait tO gO Off now fOr my dinner later.. sO hungry liao.




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 6:30 AM



♥ Tuesday, July 5, 2005♥

*`*`*`*` ReceIve a Small BIrthday gIft*`*`*`*

oN this day I went tO meet Xingyu fOr a movie.. and after that we have went tO find a place fOr a coffee..and cHat fOr a while.. we then gO home.. tHe time passes very fast....In here nOw ... I would like to say a very Big Thanks you tO Peiyin.. cOs she have really gOt the heart.. tO remember my birthday.. when I get hOme last night.. I have received a letter frOm Peiyin..with a little HP accessories and I am using t right nOw.. I was sO tOuched and guilty about it.. well... cOs even thOu I still remember when is her birthday.. Yet I never even give her any wshes at all.. But still.. I hOpe she have a nice memories fOr her Birthday.. she have wrOte tO tell me alOt of things.. sO saddening... but I am sUre she have Own thinking and will knOw what tO plan fOr herself.. It just that sHe hasnt found the right path fOr her tO stay On ba.. nevertheless....still wishes her all the Best fOr her futUre.. *smile*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:49 PM



♥ Monday, July 4, 2005♥

*`*`*`* wild Wild wet Sunday*`*`*`*`*

On Sunday ... I have an enjOyable Outing too..early mOrning.. Feng came tO fetch me and he was late cOs he was still in his dreamland when tHe time at 9am. piggy right.. *haha*.. after when he have arrived.. we headed all the way there... frOm JurOng tO pAsir Ris... but was really excited.. cOs I never been there befOre.. the weather was Oso very gOOd.. can sUntan all the way.. mAde myself mOre tan.. hehe... finally have reached the destination..alOt of peOple.. walking here and there.. *sO crOwded* then we quickly went tO get change and sOaked inside the water.. tHe weather realLy made peOple sweats alOt.. then we went to play thOse slides and etc... the feeling made me feel Scary when I climbed tO the tOP.. *haha*... sOmemOre can onLy gO One at a time.. made me even mOre scared. *sOb* hOwever.... It alsO Over very fast less than 5 minutes will dO .. *hehe*.. after tHe swim.. we went tO the theme park..hmm.. as usual there nOthing much tO play lO.. cOs I see liaO alsO scared.. sO dOn't even daRe tO trY any rides at all.. sO Feng alsO never leave me either.. end up we only get tO try On One Of the ride... after that we have decide tO go elsewhere.. since we dOn't bOther tO wait fOr the lOng waiting queue.. then we are very hungry, sO we decided tO gO fOr lunch at HendersOn for my favourIte Prawn Mee inStead....**Yum Yum** after the meal.. we headed hOme.. cOs there nOt much time tO go anywhere le.. Finally wHen I have reach hOme. I can really feel the tired.. and dOzed Off very quickly till at night then waKe up....




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:52 PM



♥ Sunday, July 3, 2005♥

*`*`*`* A buSy SatUrday*`*`*`*

sO fast it Saturday weekend le.. hmm.. this day really made my days full.. *haha* actually also nothing much either.. just that find something tO dO better than staying hOme right..? sO early in the mOrning I wOked up was tO meet Yutng go TOwn cOucil, Bank and breakfast as well.. after that we never have much things tO dO.. sO we went fOr a swim as well.. bOth Of us was excited.. gOnna have the chance tO wear oUr biknis again since the last time wOre when we are at Bintan.. sO we quickly gO back hOme and get ready fOr the swim.. *grins*.. we did funny thing again.. went tO buy the *Scatach and Win* tO play, we scratched fOr the price until we almOst fOrgOt we gOing tO swim de.. *lol* we have spend tOO much fOr nOthing sO quickly stOp playing and then at there we had 2 hours of swim and chatting away.. after the swim.. we bOth went our seperated way, I went tO Fong hOuse tO share his baby girl 1 mOnth.. and fOr the pioneer gathering as well.. then as usual, we had a mahjOng session.. and finally end game. I din win any mOney at all.. *sOb* cOs all lOsed to that *Fong* liaO.. *haha*.. then we had our dinner in his hOuse.. after that Kenneth and I went tO meet YuTing for mOvie treat from Kenneth.. Thanks sO much fOr the tickets and pOpcOrn tOO.. *haha* enjoyed the shOw with the pOpcOrn. *Great* the mOvie ended.. Kenneth as usual sent bOth Of us hOme..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:45 PM



♥ Saturday, July 2, 2005♥

*`*`*`*time fOr my destress on Friday*`*`*`*

On this friday night.. after wOrk. I am sO happy cOs nO need tO stay behind and wOrk Overtime le.. sO I can meet Yuting gO shOpping at Tampines as she have tO gO there tO cOllect her cOntact lens.. then we had dinner .. never ending chit chat and walking arOund till the late time arrives and we headed hOme tOgether...
After that abOut 11pm++ Feng came tO my hOuse fetched me Out fOr a mOvie as planned..hehe... sO nice.. when hE have arrived, we went dOwn tO Cineleisure there fOr tHe shOw " War Of tHe wOrld", but by the time we have reached there was already tO late fOr the earlier timing.. the seat was really selling fast.. then nO chOice we have tO gO fOr the later shOw since we are Outside.. die die also must watched it nO matter hOw late is it.. *haha*.. the time was still early sO we went tO have cOffee first befOre gOing In..finally we get in tO watch the shOw.. *phew* was really a very nice show.. *hehe* sO exciting.. whch made me never fall asleep at all.. the feeling also very nice.. *hehe* ...After the shOw.. the feeling comes.. hehe.. so tired and sleepy liao.. cOs it really very late after the mOvie ended.. sO he sent me straight hOme.. and I dOzed Off sO never have the chance tO talk much with him..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 7:11 PM



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*`*`*`* MisSIng hIm over tHe weeKend*`*`*`*

Over the weekend, I am nOt able tO meet my Dear Dear... cOs I have sOmething On.. sO when I told hm, he was simply pissed off Of cOs.. cOs we meet only In weekends, yet I cannot spend the time with him instead..he always have thiS thinking that weekend are sO impOrtant tO us.. but I chOse tO sPend the times with my friends nstead. sO we never even tAlk Over the phOne at all.. cOs I knOw either One Of us sure will quarelled.. sO have chOose tO escape the call frOm each Other.. and damn.. he reaLly never called me at all.. well.. I can guess sO le.. I alsO dOn't bOthered tO disturb him.. cOs he dOn't wish tO quarelled with me.. Dear.. jUst tO say I am sOrry tO yOu.. even yOu never aBle tO read it here.. bUt I still want tO tell yOu.. nO matter hOw less I be seeing yOu.. the misses and lOves have never ever lesser at all..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 6:30 AM