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♥ Friday, March 30, 2007♥

Today marks the end of the working day for the month.. which is also 1 month notice for me as well since after I have tendered on the day. which mean I still have another 1 more month to go before I am free from this place.. *sad*.. Update for my several interviews which I have attended so far, it isn't that really successful maybe due to certain reason I have now like waiting time too long, not able to meet my expectation and etc are the usual things which I have heard from the Interviewer. Currently there one potential Company which is waiting for my consideration to get back to them for 2nd interview, but due to the location & the range they can offer, have to makes me think abou t it before deciding the next move. *somehow I really in the mid of should take or dont take up the offer even after hearing some of the people advise are also the same 50-50% good and bad.

It another month drinking session together with my company people.. but it a very last minute decision to hold this small party, thus the response ain't that good either.... there only a few of us staying behind compare to the first time when we have stayed real late around going to be midnight during the CNY period... the crowds and laughter were even much more overwelming.

However tonight have gathering on with my ex colleagues *Happy happy* met up with them @ Vivo City Marchie for dinner around 8pm+.. The new Marchie @ Vivo wasn't as great as the one @ Heeren, find that there nothing much special food varieties to choose .. Finally have settled myself with a Fruit Crepe & Sparkling juice for my dinner. After which we head to have coffee session after the dinner and sat around till 1am then finally decide to go home.




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:57 PM



♥ Monday, March 26, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Depression Mode*~*~*~*

Don't know why have been feeling rather depressed for this few days..and somehow the feeling is getting more and more serious since Friday. Feeling so down and moody, serious mood swing and senseless towards the things moving around me. Am I getting into a depression state which I can't even figure out what I am now.. I need alot of quiet moments, no mood to continue to do anything on hand and even feel like running away from my desk..I do have alot of things running in my mind which could not keep me stable myself and the mood down and calm. I want to find out the root and destroy it in order to bring myself back to normal happy self...Maybe sometimes thing are not just as simple as it is which I do hope it just a simple things which I have really think too much instead.




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 9:36 PM



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*~*~*~*Usual Updatesss*~*~*~*

*:: Friday ::*

This day suppose to be a rest day for me at home.. As I was abit sick.. But somehow I am not able to give myself a good rest.. Due to personal issues, for interviews and etc, I have no choice but to drag myself to the appointment. However have went to see the doctor as well to cover myself a rest for today.. I think the doctor was able to see me in a shaggy look.. Asking me alot of things and etc... However I do feel little bit of mentally & Physically stress in me.. For no reason, I was ask to take my weight as well. I was so shoick... !! Guess what ... My weight have tremously dropped to 38.5kg within this 6mths... when I last weighted on the Oct2006 (41kg). Somehow I don't know should I be happy or feeling sad about it either..

*:: Saturday::*

This weekend for me was another family day for me..Knowing Dear Dear was sick and need alot of rest, I didn't really go and disturb him to bring me around either.. So i just be a good gal stayed home and be with him.. However was kinda displease with his mother instead. Despite knowing Ray is sick... she actually ask me to go and tell him get prepare to go "Pipit Road" to fetch his brother back home.. I was so angry with her word as well as what is she thinking about.. *Asking her sick son to go all the way down so far to pick another of her healthy son!!! * WHen can I really get away from this troublesome things of theirs..

*:: Sunday ::*

Woke up early in the morning to brew the Chicken Herbal Soup instructed by his mother.. Well make use of the chance to learn how to make herbal soup for the family... Kekeke. It was a success attempt for this first time..tha we have actually finished the whole pot.... As per promised, Dear Dear have bring both of us down to Tampines Ikea for for a walk and to browse for some furniture to give my room a new look.. Even though there are alot of people there during weekend, lucky we still manage to find a carpark space to park within a short while. After shop a little while, I have alot of things wanting to get it, but I couldn't think of what I really want to buy after all. End up I just bought a Shelf for myself and a Bed Quit for my mummy then make the way back home. Again another stupid thing his mother have requested was to bring soup and rice all the way to "Pipit Road" again for his dinner since he will not be coming home to sleep.. *What the xxxx* What has this got to do with us again !! That time Ray also was rushing time to his friend hse for some report advise, yet have to make the special trip down to send the dinner to him and then back to Jurong west.. Wasting of time from one end to the other end.




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 11:13 AM



♥ Thursday, March 22, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Outing*~*~*~*

The last minute arrangement to meet up with Cerissa and Christabelle on this day for a dinner and a short chill out. We meet up around 8pm for our sumptous dinner @ a German Bar... *forget the name*.. In fact it a place for both dining as well as drinking places....... Somehow we have only ordered the finger food and shared among the 5 of us. After we have done with everything, we got a shoick when comes to the bill.... $32 per pax for that finger food which is kinda expensive dinner for us.. *haha*

After which we have headed to BalaCalva there for a while.. I don't really know who is the one really so keen die die oso must go there.. In the end.. I simply dislikes the place so much that just can't wait to leave as soon as possible... The crowd was somehow so sickening that makes me puked... I doubt that place will be in my list next time if I want to find a place..

*:: Cerissa, BeLLe & BeaNie::*

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*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:15 PM



♥ Tuesday, March 20, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Blog before I sleep*~*~*~*

Casual blog for updates before I tuck myself into bed.. Basically there isn't anything nice or happy things for me to post it up either.. Just feel like blogging.. Somehow find myself getting lesser and lesser posting stories of the world of mine into the blog anymore.. Yeap eventaually have found myself getting more and more lamed and bored to the blog even... The feeling don't feel nice either... I think I need to look into more adventures things and pics to post with colors... *look out*

After work, as usual headed home with nothing much to do and to see Ray at my house when I reach the doorstep.. Guess what I am happy about ? My 2 blouses which have bought last week as I have got new clothes thinking of how to go with and when I am going start wearing it... Else I think it will become redundant somewhere till one year later then dig it out. *haha* that impossible ...

Before the day end.. I regretted... when I have decided to follow Ray home today... I never expect that such a hot weather will also rain at night roaring with thunder, it nice to sleep at this time but it isn't great when comes to the next morning.. which mean if the rains continue like this tomorrow morning.. I have to drag myself to work alone taking the train!! Getting so cold.. I am shivering!!...




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 11:14 PM



♥ Sunday, March 18, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Weekend Update*~*~*~*

17mar2007 ~ Saturday

Have planned to go out in the evening time... Din really have anything much to do except for surfing web and playing around with friendster and blog while waiting for Ray to come around 4pm... The Main thing I have do was to bring my 2 dogs down for a stroll and release themselve together with Ting since she have nothing to do at home either.

Ray finally have reached my house, went to have a late lunch with him after that headed to creative to collect our free Webcam.. *keke* then headed back to my house to get myself prepare to go town for a shopping and dinner as well.. Think back.. I have free myself from shopping for going to be 3weeks.. for the shopping spree.. So without hesitation.. I bought myself 2 blouse from the future state since they have 20% discount at this moment.. Now I have to think alot whether to buy anot before getting something for myself.. Not to say about going to have a shopping spree when I am going to out of job in another 1mth times or so.. *there have been no news of going to interview so far.. *sob*

After the shopping, went to have our dinner at the Wisma Republic foodcourt and when we have done with it, not wanting to end the day so early, we have drive to airport for a walk since we have last been there.. It seems there really alot of people there.. the carpart was so full that couldn't find a single lot to park until we waited for people to drive away, we then can settle a place for ourselves. The place now was really very crowded even at this timing close to midnight.. Alot of people checking in and out for their flight. But we din really stay for long there.. just a walk from one end to the other end then decide to end the night.

18mar2007 ~ Sunday

Sunday times now have become a family day for both of us. Means whenever we plan to go out, we have to bring along his mother and brother together with us wherever we go. As per his mother requested, we have planned to go Msia today. You can't imagine how hot the weather can be.. The car SUNTAN under the hot sun... can't even feel the air-con blowing us at all even @ the highest temperature... *gOsh* at the moment I feel that headache is looking for me.. *soB sOb*.. The glad thing was that there isn't much jammed for today... so lucky the pain was still under control so as long I can get into air-con room as soon as possible to avoid the heat.. *haha* I'll be fine..

After a little shopping at Jusco as usual, we did not buy anything except a cushion seat for myself then went to have the dessert to cool our body heat. Afterwhich we headed to Holiday plaza for a walk and find his game, den head to have our dinner which have been in our mind since last two weeks.. *haha*.. I missed the Ginger wine chicken soup..*yummy*...Finally it time to end the night and by the time we have reached home was already 11pm. That was really pretty late especially when tomorrow is another working day again.. *yucks*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 12:41 PM



♥ Thursday, March 15, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Another New Breed*~*~*~*

On this day 14mar2007, another new member joined our family *Lucky*..the Shih Tzu breed. He was simply so cute and shy when he first reached our home doorstep.. *haha* so shy that he wouldn't dare to step into our house at all.. First is curious of Bobby whom will run to the doorstep to KPOing.. This is the most cutest side of him.. Waiting at the doorstep to welcome you home as the same he will do so to everyone even a dog. I think they both are curious looking at each other.. thinking of whether to be friends or enemy.. haha.. As for *Lucky* Character should be need more attention from the family but Bobby won't need lesser too.. can feel Bobby is Jealous when *Lucky* ran to snatch his biscuit and area.. *haha*.. But still they don't fight with each other either.

Character:
The Shih Tzu is small, sturdy, and intelligent. They carry themselves with a noble and proud posture befitting their aristocratic ancestry. One of their most valued characteristics is the eye, which exude warmth and a human-like quality. The Shih Tzu is the least delicate of the toy breeds.

Overview:
The Shih Tzu is often referred to as a "small lion". They originated in Tibet, but are most associated with China where they were highly revered as a palace pet and prized companion. The Shih Tzu is an active, happy, and affectionate breed.

Temperament:
The Shih Tzu is first and foremost a companion. They love nothing more than being indoors with their family. This breed gets along very well with older children and other pets. They are outgoing and self-assured, keen and alert. They make excellent watchdogs. They do not do well being separated from their owners and may become destructive if left alone for extended periods of time. They are docile and quiet, but they also love to play. The Shih Tzu is spunky and can be obstinate at times. They expect to be treated as royalty and are easily spoiled.

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*:: Lucky Front view::*

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*:: His Whole Body ::*

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*:: Pictures of me with my dogs ::*





*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 12:45 PM



♥ Wednesday, March 14, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Stress over*~*~*~*

I am back to my blog after missing for sometimes... yap have been really so busy with my work and everything in the office before I'm going on leave. But really have been a very bad week for me last week just doing all the quotation.. I always die in this quotation hand... Because of this... I sure bound to suffer alot... Until now.. I don't think I have completed it either when I have to go on leave starting from 12mar ~ 14mar. I am really so happy as I prefer to spend the time on my revision instead of doing the quotation.

However the period during my exam time.. was quite a stress time for me too... but of cos compare to work.. it only peanut... *haha*.. At least I can be with myself quietly.... revise alot and really going through the whole book for every module which I have retake.. But I doubt really can fare good in this 3 modules either as it really quite difficult for me to remember all the questions at one go ... Somehow I don't think I have the confident to pass every subject either.. *sob* wasting alot of time and money... So heartache... But I can't just give up.. *haiz*.. another 6 more months to go for next exams due in September if not wrong .. I must tell myself that need to encourage myself to be more hardworking to pass all the 6papers at one go. Wasted too much time on this course doesn't reflect good on me.

So happy thinking of my laptop arrival on this coming Thursday since Saturday which I have signed up for the broadband comes with the *IBM Thinkpad notebook* which have to pay at least $83+ per month for 30mths - 4mths of happy surfing free.. = 26mth to pay for the network and notebook worth of $2159.00. Finally I can strike off this from my wishlist on this day... *haha* When I first stated this in my wishlist, I only thought that will state there forever end up without getting one at all. But lucky after I have missed out the Starhub deal afterwhich comes another Singnet deal will be more better worth..

However everything have over.. I can rest a little while more before going back to my revision for the Sept Paper again... The time staying home was a great feeling for me.. no need to think so much of the work either.. *happy happy*.. bt today mark the end of my leave too.. I have to drag myself back to work and endure for the rest of my notice period till 04may..But it ok .... Just go ahead with the rest of the day.. I am sure able to find alot of things to do and clear before I can leave. Maybe there will have handover soon. *Gosh just can't imagine what my life will be when I am back to office
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*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:51 PM



♥ Monday, March 5, 2007♥

*~*~*~*The Harsh Decision In Me*~*~*~*

On this very day, I have decided to end the path walking with ACR.. It was quite a dilly dally decision running in my mind before I have decided to do so .. In fact I have already dragged a few months and even till today, it already the 3rd month of the year 2007... It was quite an uncertain mind of me to know whether is this the right time to do so anot.. I have quite a numbers of worries which I do not know will they bothered me to the end either... What worries me is whether I can find a job to tide over my crisis.. Alot of people have advise me to find a job first before tendering, but they can't say this when they know I got to serve 2mths notice even I have tendered. This is the most hardest time for me to go through.

I think the person who worried is my mummy.. But in spiritually she do support me too.. as well as Ray and those people who really know what I am thinking will also support me too.. I believe that and hope that I won't make the wrong choice to go ahead with the decision I have made, because of looking at the future enhancement ahead and to fulfil the Resolution year 2007.. *To find a better JOB that suit me most*.. I just scare that I couldn't plan it out well myself instead. End up.... I waited and waited for nothing in vain and maybe not the one which I really want to look for.... *Touch Wood*

However I don't really feel very nice after I have handed up the letter to my boss personally...*she only asked me why?* But I couldn't answer her what I m thinking about either.. But I wish I can know what I am really thinking of to answer her too... Right now.. I don't know whether she will find me for a personal talk anot at least she will show some appreciation for what I have done for the past 1yr + and not expecting she will ask me to stay. *haha*..
* My next Plan tO be Continued*




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:23 PM



♥ Friday, March 2, 2007♥

*~*~*~*Just for a hope*~*~*~*

I was rather happy that I got shortlisted for the interview in this company despite seeing my resume stated for 2mths after tender notice. Somehow I don't really hope for much that any company would ask me for the interview either. * Hope*.. However have fixed my appointment for today in the morning at around 11am start. Early in the morning, woke up quite early and it not because I couldn't get to sleep either, just tat I manage to wake myself up before just in time. Maybe thinking that I have promised *Bobby* to bring him down for a stroll the next day, feel that I should keep my promise to him otherwise he will be in suffering state if no one bring him.. And I did before meeting Cerissa to work at 830am. Lucky was still in time when I met up with her and of cos was a little bit late. *keke*

After I have reached the destination, the time was still pretty early for the interview too.. So have a short and relax breakfast with her first before heading to the company. The place was quite a little tedious whereby there 3 different lobby leading to the company.. *I was lost*.. Erm.. end up abit late for 5min.. The people did not made me wait for longer either... so fast the interview within 45min.. I am done with it. . Somehow since after I have worked in the current company, I have lost alot of confidence, words and myself especially towards the interview. It seems that I simply couldn't produce any words and confidence telling them I am able to do it... Now what I can do it really just waiting for the hope.. After the interview, Arrange to meet up with Eric and Cerissa to have lunch together before heading back to office for the next half day afternoon.. Went VivoCity for our nice and light lunch.. Hotdog Sausage which I think only available in Vivo ba..*keke*

The morning half day always seems to flies so fast and it time to head back to office after that. My mind and brain are all shut off after that.. So sleepy under the hot sun made me melted.. Alot of work to do but don't know where to start either. Suddenly so many things to do.. Today company have a special event that is our mini *Gambling Corner* official for the whole office.. I think my boss organise such event somemore.. All of us was allowed to knock off at 530pm sharp for the games and the small party on.. Wow.. I just can't wait for the time to come then I can put everything on the rest.. and then leave to enjoy myself instead.. Since it Friday.. giving myself excuse to stop work.. but today ain't my day to win any money home at the end of the day. *haha* but I do enjoy myself for this little fun..




*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:40 PM