♥ Monday, August 29, 2005♥
Hmm.. when I woke up.. already the noon time.. find myself sleeping on my own bed.. so shoick and nice under the air con.. and Dearie sleeping beside me... seeing the time.. think they all should have checked out and on the way back home liao le.. haiz.. the weekend always so fast over.. and then thinking of next day have to come to work is the most moodless day..hmm..always hope that time doesnt flies so fast.. and always like to spend the times by my Dearie side.. so sweet.. at least he doesnt annoyed me so much like work does.. Dear bring me to have lunch and then shopped a little while.. after that headed home.. so hot and sticky all over.. the whole day was really bored.. seeing the time past hours by hours.. really feel so tired.. have also took a nap.. then wasted half of the day away .. woke up already dinner time.. then he bring me to eat Sushi at Northpoint.. after that.. also very late le.. so don't wish to waste the time walking here and there for nothing.. then go home and rest till turn in time.. Kaoz.. thinking of coming back to work really have make me scare.. that I dare not close my eyes cos I scare the time very fast have to come to work... i really have the phobia when I think of stepping in this company.. end up the whole night I really kept awake.. eyes also have became swollened.. (@_@).
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:25 PM
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*`*First day of chalet*`*
The whole lot of us in the Chalet..
This day was really a lost for me when I am back to office.. cos I was overslept.. so have taken half day off and came in the afternoon.. but when I came back.. something happened to me.. which I don't wish to say it either.. anyway said liao also no used.. just don't feel happy and damn angry about it.. and that it.. for those who know it.. they know me.. whatever is it.. it is gone
and that it.. I just hope to get out of here as soon as possible.. cos I find no future here either.. the day was really damn bad for me.. but lucky that it was already Friday weekend.. and I got a chalet going on waiting for me ... I guess I will get to enjoy there with my friends as well.. to forget 
the matter and everything here... for that moment.. just can't wait to knock off on this day.. and not willing to do anything at all.. cast everything aside.. and countdown for the 530pm knock off time... so nice of Weiqiang came to fetch me all the way from Pasir Ris to My workplace and then back to Pasir Ris again.. haha.. at that time can see he kinda tired.. but still carry on with the plan.. Thanks Weiqiang..Finally have reached the Chalet cos I also very tired after knock off.. so happy when reached.. then seeing them really lights up my day.. by the time I reached was already evening time.. 
all of us was famished.. then gonna start the fire.. for the dinner tonight.. was BBQ.. *yum yum*.. I hate and like BBQ.. cos I don't know how to cook the food at all.. only know how to wait for the food to put in my mouth.. *haha* imagine if I have met selfish people who don't willing to BBQ for me.. then I
sure have nothing to eat liao le.. but so lucky.. they are not that kind of selfish people.. Especially BengKhoon, Lida, James, Joyce and etc.. all are good enough to prepare the food and then serve me as well.. so nice of them.. the whole night was just eat and eat... and then we played games at midnight.. playing and 
guessing with cards.. and then drinks all sort of drinks mixture as punishment.. till James really puked.. *haha* but I was not the one who made him puke.. so not guilty about it.. but really feel sorry for him to have made him scare of Honey so much.. *hehe* overall really enjoyed the whole night till we turned in.. Our first night all enjoying and gonna end the day.. all acting cute in the pic.
*`*2nd Day of Chalet*`*
Hmm... wake up with some flu and shivering.. cos the whole room suddenly feel so cold.. that I have to cover myself up.. like a mummy as they have described me.. *haha* hmm..then suddenly feel like it already so late liao and why my alarm still hasn't alert me to wake up.. No Wonder.. Bengkhoon have switch off for me.. that show How tired and sleepy I am .. that I didn't even hear the alarm ring.. finally have woke up and get prepared myself going for a swim and sun-tan.. together with Shuhui and this is also the first time going swimming with her.. *haha* she really have swim alot of laps.. while I really have sun-tan all the way.. but I still can't see myself tanned enough either.. really difficult to absorb the sun.. after done.. we have went back to chalet and wash up then waiti for the guys to come back.. then had lunch together.. and after that went to game room and played games for awhile waiting for LIda and his gd to arrive then proceed to the "Wild Wild Wet".. by that time we went.. too bad.. the sun was already going to sunset.. and really can't feel the sun burning on me at all.. but still so shoick.. despite the hot weather.. we can dipped into the pool together.. and play those games together.. it was really so fun lo.. but too bad.. we never able to take any photos at all.. especially those shots when we are playing.. really wasted can't take any pic.. otherwise see liao also funny... *phew*.. all of us was so tired and hungry again thinking that we are going to eat BBQ food again cos alot of leftover this time... so have to finished everything up.. and this time.. the food taste better than yesterday after we have knOw how to BBQ it with sauce and etc.. *yummy* same thing.. waiting for them to serve me again... really have eaten until so full that we all gonna puked out.. too much to eat.. *haha* not able to gobble it anymore.. so choose to throw away instead... then all of us rested for the day relaxed and playing games.. mahjong on the floor..really tortured my back.. *Phew* I thought I was going to lose alot cos the first few games had really almost lost all my chips liao.. but after Dearie called and said he wanna bring me home.. my luck have came back.. and suddenly slowly win it back.. final games over.. I only find myself lost $0.80.. *so lucky* hehe.. =D hmm.. finally the night ended for me.. Dearie have reached and bring me home. so miss them and the fun.. but too bad..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 11:29 AM
♥ Friday, August 26, 2005♥
Another 1 more day going to be Friday weekend le.. *yeah*.. today feeling quite happy.. the whole day should be quite relaxed in the office.. doing things and relaxing away.. have went to lunch with my colleagues here.. at Bugis.. and went shopping as well.. hehe.. then saw a big tigger bear.. cost $19.90 only.. so worth it and limited edition.. so..I quickly grabbed it.. and the most glad thing is that.. Dearie agreed to buy it for me de.. haha.. =D so happy thinking of it now.. that go home can hug the bear to sleep liao le.. don't knOw why .. suddenly have the feeling need to hug a bear to company to sleep.. haha.. so excited.. can't wait to go home now.. and then open up the bear and put on my bag.. =D.. yeah.. going home soon.. another 15min more.. Ting won't be going home with me again today.. *haiz* my friend also not here.. otherwise she can send me to Tiong Bahru again.. but too bad.. today have walk all the way to MRT myself.. then meet up with Xy to get the Variants from him and to have dinner as well.. actually today should have meet up with Charissa.. but hor.. that girl.. said she is tired.. cos she went to chiong yesterday.. *gosh* next day stil have to work somemore.. yet she can chiong.. then end up.. tired to meet me.. *haiz*.. it ok .. can save money go home instead.. *
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 8:15 AM
♥ Thursday, August 25, 2005♥
The whole morning when I come.. and start to on my pc.. all the URGENT issues coming up one by one.. all chasing me for the parts, po, prices.. quotation.. this and that.. making me so fed up and piss off the whole day.. was simply in bad mood the whole day.. *sob*.. hmm had have talk with JIn.. he said he was going for interview at somewhere .. so had arrange to meet him for lunch time at 1pm.. and so lucky by the time he reach was also around that time... so still have got the 1 hr time to have lunch at the sakae Sushi.. actually had planned to go East Coast Park.. but too bad.. he have lost the way.. so had stopped at Marina square instead.. and so nice of him.. that he have come to find me for lunch and treat me as well.. still asked me.. where to find such good person..? but haha.. i know where.. and I found liao le.. *hehe*.. but he doesn't belong to me of cos.. anyway hope he can find the job that he want to be.. ok..? after he had send me back to the office.. haiz.. it another sian mood for me again.. just work.. and chit chat at the same time till finally it 530pm.. and off I go....Ting said she don't wish to take the train.. so I have to go back myself.. Jaime send me back to Tiong Bahru.. then I went to meet Xing yu for dinner before going for my lesson... *haiz* at least still got someone company me for dinner.. otherwise.. so lonely and hungry.. haha..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:46 PM
♥ Wednesday, August 24, 2005♥
In this miracle world of mine.. there lives a magician or maybe a Genie... He always know what I really want or what I really wish for... and then one day.. he will always try to make your wish come true to make a surprising day for you.. Since the day I have made this wish that I want to get the Mickey Mouse one day.. Suddenly there this day really came.. when Jo told me that she have an extra for the Mickey Mouse.. but she have sold it to her friend which really had disappointed on that very day.. So When I told this person about it.. of what Jo have told me..Him being a angel said there will have a miracle one day and will bring this Mickey to me in a magical way... at that time I really don't know when that day gonna happened?? and will it happened at all.. I also don't know and don't wish to think of it anymore... but.. a show behind the scene was XIngyu the Actor and Jo (Actress) his accomplice.. both of them cheating me.. *bleah =P* Cos Xingyu was the actually the friend who Jo had sold the mickey to.. and she also ganged up with him to cheat me..*hehe* and this was meant to be Xingyu plot to give me a surprise one day.... So on this day..This so call Magician have appeared in front of me.. and other than passed me Two Binchotan Variants.. as well as surprise me with the Mickey Mouse too... I was really shoick and happy hugging it.. that I can't believe i have actually have finally got the pair.. I knOw it all thanks to XingYu.. have made my day brighter up.. whenever I feeling down.. especially for these 2 days.. really days sucks.. I know he have really try hard and spent alot for making my dreams come true...
Finally I can posted the 2 Toys together.. A pair of Mickey and Minnie
After meeting up with Xingyu.. I have to go Jurong Point to meet up with Weiqiang, Lida, Bengkhoon and Shuhui.. the usual people for gathering to discuss about the chalet.. and damn it.. I thought I was very late when I reached. but they are even more later than me.. all takes things for granted. thinking either one would be very late.. and then all must wait till everyone arrive then comes.. end up.. I am the only silly to turn up early.. then me alone waiting like a fool.. and going to be 9pm.. all then come one by one.. *phew* that time my feeling was.. might as well change the time to 9pm instead.. I still like silly fool.. waiting alone .. so lonely.. finally Weiqiang arrived.. but I just can't smile at him with the bad mood I am in.. and throw tempered on him instead... So sorry.. mood really not that good waiting alone.. finally all have arrived... and then waiting for table at Coffee bean for coffee and chit chat.. able to chat for a very long time.. till about 11pm++ then I reach home... and so nice of Weiqiang.. Sent me home though it already so late..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:45 PM
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Haiz.. Have got alot of things to think about now.. partly because of the job I have now.. thinking of should I anot.. *sob sob* .. since yesterday boss have talked to me about my work performance and the duties to do in future.. I think I have no wish to stay here longer cos boss said my job performance only at average.. and asked me to try again and judge my performance again.. well I have know what I will expect of my day coming since they day I started work here.. Cos i know i didn't give it my best to do my work.. even I got.. but well.. it not something which I can acheive at all.. neither things which I can prove to them I can do it de.. cos I find that they are not giving me any sense of work that I can do to prove either.. somehow the problems doesn't lie on me.. but it the management and company problem.. causing me to have problems too.. My comfirmation date also coming.. so have to make a fast decision whether I want to work hard and try again or.. Gonna hand in my letter to them.. and request them to let me go instead.. cos i knOw the longer I work here.. I don't find myself happy at all.. somemore lot of exams and schoolworks coming up making me more and more busier and tighter in my time schedule.. feeling so tired every now and then.. now onlY wish that I can stop work at the moment.. then study well for my exams on the Oct.. after that.. then concentrate well on my new job if I have found.. But I knOw once this decision is made.. It not gonna be easy for me next time.. maybe I have difficulties to find a good payout job.. all these I have already think of the consequenses.. but I just don't understand.. why must it be me..? everything work well for me.. except for my job.. haiz.. In the first place.. I shouldnt have make such a haste hassle to change new job.. somemore the worst thing is.. why am I working in this company?? I have told myself.. I won't want to come in this place at all.. but don't understand why I am here le..? being hit on the head.. *omg*.. haiz.. but if one day I gonna leave here.. I will miss the 2 kakis of mine, have been with me.. since I started out here.. together lunching, heart chatting and etc.. as well.. as Ting too.. cos..all these while she have been with me too.. going work and home together.. which hardly can 2 long time friend doing together.. cos we always working in different districts workplace.. seldom have the chance to go work, go home together.. and the most enjoyable thing is that.. whenever we like.. we just tell each other.. we want to go out.. anywhere always so near to both of us.. I miss these moments.. After some talks with my friends here..some asked me to stay.. some said.. if want to go.. act fast before I am comfirmed.. make me even more headache.. The Worst thing is.. Quarrelled with Raymond Lim because of this.. I really don't know how to talk to him.. really made my blood boils.. why other people can used gentle way of talking to me.. but not him.. he always thinking very negatives way and making me like even more frustrated talking to him.. I know he mean me good.. but then I just wondered.. whether he really understand what my planning.. But frankly speaking.. I don't know whether what I have done this time is right or wrong.. What I will face in future.. I also don't know.. Now the only main problem is about the Money $$ ... worry about my family too as it doesnt affect only myself.. but to them as well..just hate it.. why must I have to think so much for my own problem..? This time I am not being stubborn or in a moment of folly... it just that I feel that I don't have much time to wait.. but final decision is..I just thinking of leaving.. What there to stop me..? can anyone tell me..? So Sian.. Going to end of the day.. but I still hasnt had any ideas..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 11:44 AM
♥ Tuesday, August 23, 2005♥
Why Everytimg I hear people saying.. Love is sweet.. It makes 2 person fonder in the heart.. But sometimes it not really the case.. people always telling me.. If you have good boyfriend.. cherish him with all your heart.. but why it always me.. hearing this from other.. but why it seems that .. I can't feel it at all.. The whole day till now hasn't been feeling good.. I also can't explained why I don't feel good.. always have alot of things running my mind.. Don't know how to 
think and solve it.. maybe the strength in me just not strong enough to solve it myself.. when it involves with two person... it better to solve it between the both of you... this I know.. but the things is that how to solve.. when you don't understand yourself... neither he also can't understand you? The most hateful things is that... when two person communicate cos there shouldn't have any hidden feeling or words between both of you.. but what does it help when you have confide in him and end up he is angry and not happy with what you have told him?? doesn't that makes you feel like.. talking to him is just like wasting of time.. and find it meaningless to find this person to talk to..?? end up.. when you have quarrelled.. then he will find all sorts of your wrongs.. and keep putting it in you.. this tell me.. that I shouldn't have talk so much to him.. should have keep it to myself.. everything and everything.. then also don't have so much problem happened... somehow I rather.. keep everything to myself.. then telling him.. I know I will feel bloated in the heart.. and have no where to explored.. end up.. I will feel depressed.. and stay in one corner.. to cry by myself.. where no one will be able to see... it may not feel bitter when you read this.. but it only feel bitter when you feel this thing inside you... Sometimes I thought I have alot of people hearing me... but then i feel it is not this way.. cos the best person to talk to .. is yourself and your heart.. cos u know that your heart will never betray you and let out your words.. if you don't want to... and this way no One will ever know what you have actually think of..
Just a Quote I found
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If you want something badly, let it go,
if it's come back to you.. then it going to be yours forever.
If it doesn't then it never to be yours
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*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:00 AM
♥ Sunday, August 21, 2005♥
Today it Saturday night.. hmm...what have I done for the day? Hmm.. woke up in the noon.. As planned.. Dearie bring me to Malaysia.. for shopping and watch movie "Bewitch".. this show still not too bad.. cos some kinds of love scene between Witch and Mortal.. but the ending still a good one.. cos it end with a good ending lo... after the show ended.... we went shopped for awhile.. Dear had bought a pair of shoes for me too.. "but they said Dearie shouldnt have bought the shoes for each other... I kinda sensitive of this.. but Dear don't mind it.. but I am still so happy.. that he have bought something for me... but somehow today also have quarrelled with him.. but after that we still have patched up le.. he just want me to apologise... when we are back to Singapore.. we have went to Causeway point to have our dinner.. cos Dearie Mummy sick le.. so have to settle dinner ourselves... after that we went to the 'Timezone" and watch people catch the "Eflin Catcher" but so sad.. i don't see the "Kimono Mickey" anymore.. I was so happy when I saw "Jo msg me..that she have extra one to sell me.. but the next minute she said have sold to her friend.. hmm..but it ok la... cos i am sure. If I have the patient.. I will be able to get it one day... maybe as Jo said.. she will sell it to me.. if she able to get it next time.. well.. so I wait.. maybe sometimes.. will go try it again one day.. finally the night ended... here surfing net.. online.. watch show.. and do some homework... after that.. I have to turn in soon.. so tired le...
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:36 PM
♥ Saturday, August 20, 2005♥
Haiz.. Come back to work today... still down with flu and cough.. voice still abit coarse coarse.. don't wish to talk much either.. noseblock somemore.. then coughing away.. haiz.. think I come back passed the germs around in the whole Company.. cos the surrounding so small.. easily to catch germs.. my germss somemore.. *haha*.. aren't I so sway these few months..? started work in the new company on the June.. and now only August.. already sick for two times... nOw just on M.C for 1.5days... haiz.. but it isn't great at all.. cos.. I have to paid for myself to rest at home.. have to deduct from my own leave account.. *sob sob*.. have already deducted alot this month because of the Company Shut down on the 8Aug..oso my own accout... haiz.. but it ok.. at least.. I am still happy staying at home then going to work of course.. haha.. have actually thinking of whether going back to work anot yesterday.. but then it was even more sian.. when Raining somemore.. and me just standing under the rain thinking whether want to go back anot.. final decision is.. I decided to U-Turn back home instead.. cos.. I really have lost the mood to think so much liao le.. stupid right..? stand so long outside.. end up still go home.. lucly never take the MRT then think of going home.. then I be even more stupid liao le.. hmm.. even stayed home also seems so busy.. cos have to revise my study as well.. and then took medicine after that feel drowsy liao..w ent to turn in around 130pm++ and slept till 5pm ++ then wake up.. find nothing to eat.. alone at home.. haiz.. wow.. I was so hungry then.. cos I didn't eat the whole day till evening time.. finally XingYu called me.. and then we have dinner together at Jurong PoInt.. after that we went to watch movie.. " The Maid".. chey.. It aNother damn stupid horror movie.. rated about 1/5 ba.. haha.. give it one star will do.. cos the story somehow quite a sad story.. i think this one more suitable for those whose house have maid.. cos it really all the talk about the maid.. it not horror at all..so I also not scare either.. after the show ended.. Xingyu also got company me home..cos it kinda late at night.. but then.. my house there got Pasar malam.. so many people around the street.. so also not that scary and quiet too.. haha..I think he is more scare than me..
Hmm.. today have a nice and full lunch with my colleague Jaime @ Sakae Sushi.. expensive lunch oso.. but ok la.. at least I enjoyed it.. rather than eat outside.. cos weather very hot.. too bad.. Vera never come along.. cos she always like want to go on diet.. haiz.. skipped lunch.. Finally the day gonna over soon.. so great.. come back work On Friday.. and it gonna be another new weekend for me to enjoy liao le.. opps.. not enjoy.. spend time on my study too.. But dear said wanna bring me go JohOr again.. watch movie too.. ? Don't knOw got what movie to see.. can't wait to knock off and go for my lesson.. and then the main is to meet My Dear lo.. so quick time pass away...
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 7:45 AM
♥ Thursday, August 18, 2005♥
For no reason.. I gonna fall sick again.. for now still alright.. only lost my voice.. and now turn to another kind of sexy voice.. *haha*.. don't feel like speaking alot today.. wanna keep quiet the whole day till 530pm.. but I knOw it impossible de la.. sO lucky for the suppliers.. I don't have the ability to bother them today.... nor they can hear any of my voice either.... Hmm.. the whole day so sian.. I wish to go home.. but too bad.. No MC.. leave to claim while on Probation period.. have to torture myself to work.. unlike last time.. "Pioneer" have give such a good privellege of medical benefit.. Just one Card.. act like a wonder card.. have over 100+ of panel Clinic around the whole Singapore... I can just show them and I being treated.. haiz.. nOw?? don't even knw where to see doctor.. have to ask for the medical chip somemore..? who to ask lei..? I also don't knOw.. oh No... nOw anOther feeling comes.. I got one side gotta noseblock liao... gotta drink alot of water... I don't wish to get fever .. cos the whole day on the bed.. i be even more sick.. sian lei.. today also have to go school.. kaoz.. I don't think it gonna be a good day for me liao...
*`*A story of a dream*`*
This little girl have a little dream when she was asleep last night.. then.. then... due to depression.. she have fall sick.. and then.. when she was sick.. she dreamt.. this dreamer came into her dream...feeling the heartache.. he have put down his heart and decide to find her.. wanting to look into her condition.. feel heartpain.. he was not able to find the herbs.. thus.. he only have 2 antidote in his pocket.. and sO he have offered to let her have it.. despite he was also in need of it.. and not to disappointed him.. she have taken the antidote... as night fall.. and was about to turn in.. he have showers her with care and love.. the kind of attention he have to pamper her, planted a kiss on her cheeks, watch her fallen asleep.. and he then quietly leave.. the dreamer gone.. and she woke up... q(@ v *)p
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 1:45 PM
♥ Wednesday, August 17, 2005♥
There was once a upon a time.. when two person are living in a dreamland.. where they will think they won't be able to find anyone.. just a dreamland filled with the dreams, fantasy, trees, flowers and rainbow over their head.. it seems so nice and sweet dreams they have.. when they are being together lying on the grassbed.. looking at the rainbow.. they have said alot things under the sky.. at that moment.. it have been the happiest moments when only the both of them.. then one day .. the grass suddenly turned brown.. no more sky.. it all so dark with the darkess in front of us..Both of them had finally feel that it all gone.. We have to go back to the reality where we are in.. so when times goes by.. found that there shouldn't be such a dreams in life.. and wake up to find that all these are just the illusion in their mind.. There was once... the guy have left a message in the dream..
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As I feel the tear roll down my cheek.
I notice that my heart is weak
For the Love I have for you will always be Gold and true I have made some mistakes & they rest in the past
But now I knOw my love will always last,
Even though, we are distance apart.
You always have the key to my heart
Dated on the "March 05"
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*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 1:30 AM
♥ Tuesday, August 16, 2005♥
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tO those who doesn't get their world
*World is Cruel.. Love is Blind... Lost in Sadness.. Blur in Mind...
*Heart is Broken.. Flame has Died.. Timed had pAssed & he is not mine.
*Now, if love is painful.. and tortures us so.. Why do we have to love?
*Why is it all we have to search for in life?
*This pain.. this Agony? Why is it all we long for?
*This torture.. this powerful death of self? .. Why?
*Because .. It Loves*`*`*`*`*`*`*The End*`*`*`*`*`*`*
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:01 AM
♥ Monday, August 15, 2005♥
*Kaoz*.. very tiring saturday... spent the whole day sleeping away only.. haha..felt the hangover effect the whole morning.. till afternoon also the.. very tired.. Ting called me up for lunching at the neighbourhood market.. but I also have no appetite to eat at all.. Ting ordered the Carrot cake but i didn't eat alot.. wasted her money.. cos my whole body really not well.. nor can eat nor drink.. *haiz* everytime like that.. when drink is nice.. when drunk not nice.. the effect even worst.. headache somemore... then still have to travel to Dear house alone.. with the moody feeling... Finally have reached his side.. meet up with him and then shopped for a while.. then I hungry le. he bought the prawn mee for me . but I also never eat all.. only eat the prawn and drink soup.. wasted his money again.. *hehe* .. after that I went to bed again... really have sleep the whole day then wake up and have my dinner then play game and online only.. wow.. one whole day never touched my books at all.. *hehe* begin to feel guilty.. never really study hard for myself.. and the test.. i also don't know how am I going to passed..hmm.. nothing much to write le... still feel tired.. going to turn in to my dreamland le.. *nighty*
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:40 PM
♥ Sunday, August 14, 2005♥
*`*`*`* My clubbing Time*`*`*`*
Finally after so long.. I have carried out my planing.. which is.. going to clubbing at *Club mOmO* together with Yuting, Charissa, Xingyu, Kenneth, Rickson & Geremy (Ting Friend).. Since started work at 830am.. I have been thinking of how to put my make up.. how to plan the meeting with my friends and etc.. simply there no mood to work on this day at all la.. so sian.. that I just can't wait to get out of the place.. haiz.. somemore today damn lonely.. cos my 2 close friends nt here... + Jaime & Vera + my lunch partners and heart to heart kakis lo. both of them on MC.. so me no choice.. gotta be alone.. and skipped lunch as well.. but it ok la.. today really damn busy because of work and payments as well.. making me run here and there.. for this and that.. but still... no one.. really wanna offer their hand to help.. cos haiz.. selfish la.. leave people to die only... I also don't care.. since they don't bothered..then hor.. so sian for 2 hrs.. cos Computer have to do some scanning .. so I can't work.. without the Computer.. * just walk here and there * till knock off time.. then I quickly packed up and go.. then Willam.. as usual come and fetch me to school.. then studied till halfway at breaktime.. I leave the class...and meet up with Yuting.. So nice of her friend come to fetch me from school and also bring me home.. Thanks Geremy *haha* can't thanks him personally cos at tat time I was already drunk.. can't wait to go home le.. However.. Rick was really early and the first one but I wasn't that late either..reached there damn early.. got not much people.. music oso not nice.. so was kinda sian.. and the three of them was really late lo.. reached liao also 11pm++ le.. the fun also started.. at that time I also abit high liao.. cos I already started with 2 jug before.. they arrived.. then Xingyu have also got me the Binchotan "3" which he have helped me to searched from the yahoo Auction... it really so cute.. but there are 2 more variant still hasn't got it yet... so now still short of 2 pcs.. but I think it coming to my house soon.. cos Xingyu said so de. *hehe* thanks to the guys... total 4 jugs of beer.. they have footed the bill.. and we girls just enjoyed to the extreme together with them.. dancing whole night long.. but can see Ting.. didn't really enjoy it lo.. cos she don't like the music from this club.. so sorry.. we aren't on the same frequency de... next time I will try to go with her to the *Newrooms* one day.. maybe it be nicer than last time I went.. really have enjoyed the whole night with them.. maybe it because too long never go le.. so the fun also not sian.. finally the night ended.. we all seperated and go home without having supper with them..*hehe* talk so much yet I am the first one to backout the supper time
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This is the set which I have collected for the Binchotan "3" and now waiting for the 2 variants posted above.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 6:30 PM
♥ Friday, August 12, 2005♥
This day I have received a surprise parcel for my belated birthday present which was
sent by ChuaP.C.. This is him.. always likes to give me surprise as and when he likes.. always making so shoick as well as happy.. have received quite a few surprises from him since the day have I known him then.. the whole day in the office really have made me so sian and bored.. don't feel like doing anything at all. but when postman called and asked me to collect parcel.. then brightened my day abit.. hehe.. he was so thoughtful that even he went to Thailand business trip.. at least he also have thought of me.. and bought the present from there.. A pinky musical Doll which can produce a musical Birthday melody.. wow that was the most sweetest gift from him.. a very cute little dollgirl can play melody de.. it .. Hmm.. I don't need to go school.. sO happy.. so have plan to go Suntec with Yuting as well as XingYu just because of the "BINCHOTAN SERIES 3" have launched.. and we wanna go down take a look at it...but it so sad that every machine already out of stock..it emptied.. and even spoilt.. cos we both are itched la.. never bothered the machine spoilt and still put the the money inside.. end up struck and have to wait three days later then can claim back the $2 in the spoilt machine.. and Ting have to get bothered.. cos she returned me the money instead.. actually I was being too annoyed to her.. so she can't stand it.. and quickly returned me instead lo.. *haha*.. after that we have tigam quite a few back lo.. so never spent much.. after that when XIngyu reached Suntec.. he came to find us and was really nice of him to change $10 just for the fun of catching the "Mickey Mouse" for me.. *haiz.. but this time round still the same thing.. spent $14 yet.. still can't get any of it at all.. I really give up le la.. not meant to be with me at all de.. THE GRIP oso GOT sOMething WRONG with it.. see liao also fed up.. doesn't grip anything up at all.. Can't even see the doll moves either.. comfirmed sure can't grip up at all de la.. sO I very sianned.. played until fed up liao.. then stopped it.. and went to have dinner instead.. and since today we are not able to get anything at all.. we just leave with a very disappointing heart again.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 1:15 PM
♥ Thursday, August 11, 2005♥
wow lau.. until today my mood still very low.. simply no mood at all.. the most sianz thing is that.. I am back at work today.. really damn sianz.. feel very tired.. and bored.. and simply pissed off with the work here... everything also urgent..and then all due date have already over by the time i received the documents.. sometimes i just feel.. Why Indonesia People.. are so stupid.. and so slow.. in doing things... haiz.. talking to them even make me pissed off....... arrghhh... thought my day will be abit better after a long rest.. but never expect.. it got even worst.. hmm.. had went to Bugis for lunch just nw.. as well.. as go to see the "Eflin catcher" and tried my luck there.. but still I spent $17 but got nothing out of it..was really very sad and down already.. simply want to give up of playing with this.. I just feel like being cheated somehow... and actually why am I so silly..? Don't know what the point of putting so much money to catch something which I also don't know what the tactic of catching it... I really feel like giving up.. been scolded by Ray quite a numerous of time..haiz.. today was really in such a bad mood.. that I don't even feel like going for lesson at all.. however I still go to school.. with the disheartened heart..but the happy thing is that.. after have dinner with Yuting.. I proceed to class.. find the whole room dark and empty.. then I realised the class have been postponed.. hmm.. quite disappointed nO one have actually informed me about it.. and so lucky.. that the school very near my house.. I just happily went back home and rest. ...*hehe*...
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:38 PM
♥ Wednesday, August 10, 2005♥
Today is Singapore Birthday and it is a public holiday as well... sO all people no need to go work.. for all citizens to celebrate the Birthday.. *hehe* crappies only.... Hmm.. Didn't really spend my day happily today.. When I have woke up from my bed.. I stared at the Minnie Mouse saying that I will want to get the Mickey mouse back today..sO we went to "Northpoint" Timezone wanna catch the "Eflin Catcher" but it was so sad. that the whole machine was spoilt.. but I never give up at all... Dear Dear companied me to "Causeway Point" to try my luck for it.. I was so excited when we get there.. however... Dear was very nice.. though he don't know how to catch it for me.. but he still had paid for it and let me played myself... but this time round really have no luck with me at all.. I tried for 27 times which means cost me $27.. so I choose to give up and I went home empty handed.. I was really so sad.. and no mood to do any other things.. neither shopping at all.. so we both went home with our heart painful.. especially Dear Dear.. *sob sob*... he had actually tried to cheer me up.. But that time really no mood to talk to him at all le.. *haiz*.. but now also alright le... everything fine now.. also have talked to Jo just now... well.. she told me that they also no luck either... and also have spent about $100+ *phew* that even alot.. mine is still so peanut compared to her.. it the fun that count lo.. but don't know whether finlly she have get what she wants anot.. *haiz*.. The Long weekend gonna over soon.. so Sick and sian thinking of tomorrow.. don't feel like going back at all.. but still have to work for the dough so have to drag myself work le..... ok...gonna continue my story again.. turn in soon.. *
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:00 AM
♥ Monday, August 8, 2005♥
*`*`*`* The First wIsh cOme true*`*`*`*
Hmm...... other than just the outing alone... the next sweetest moment is this.... what is my first wish which have come true on the 8 Aug 2005... I have finally got my first Kimono Minnie Mouse after few tries of $26++ for this toy... Thanks to those who have helped to contribute to make my wish Come true... *wInk* Kenneth, Xingyu, Jo and her Boyfriend (Tim) They have actually paid for the Minnie Mouse.. some paid for the money and some use their effort to get it for me..and actually finally I have got it myself at the last catched.. *Phew* that was really.. +closed shave+ that it hanging there waiting for me to save her from dropping down again... *bleah* sO very Big Thanks Thanks tO you Dears.. fOr making my wish come true today cand I really never expect that there will ever One day that this Minnie now staying in my hOuse le.. *muackss* .. shOwed this tO my Dear Dear.. he also surprised.. that I got it... and this also make him wanna bring me to get the other half at NorthPoint tOmorrow.. So nOw excited waiting for the my wish to come true soon.. *`*`*`* My Second Wish fOr the Night*`*`*`*
See beside the Minnie Mouse Above .. there sure tO be another Kimono Mickey Mouse awaiting to be here with her... Beside is the Picture of my 2nd Wish is to get her the other half to be with her and I hope the day will really come soon.. Actually I have tried to get it today as well.. when Xingyu still have the credit of $6 left.. sO still hope for the miracle that we will get it today with the balance..but *sob* sad is that I only able to bring her home without him.. So glad fOr Jo as she manage to get this Mickey home after a few tries... and So lucky for her is that she have actually used her Console Prize to exchange for it.. * I don't know I can actually do it this way* now I know liao*.. Hmm.. I shouldn't just focus on the one I want... Should have use the easier way to catch and exchange will have more higher chance to my wish.. * God Blessed*.. fOr now I didn't get the 1 pair sO I won't post how beautiful can it be for.. cos I still feel the missing of the whole pic... fOr now they are still seperated from each other.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 6:30 PM
♥ ♥
+ the fUture Superstar Singer +
+ All ready pose fOr the Starter of tOday stOry +
Woke up early in the Work up in morning at 8am++ then meet Violet, Jo, Ken & Xingyu at about 9am++ together and headed our jOurney tO jOhor as planned.. then we went to KTV early in the morning... fIrst tIme so much early just because of the cheap cost.. it unbelievable.... 5 pax for RM43++ only.. 
not even $20 lei.. can't believe it rite? you + Violet & Me +
will knOw it if you been there before ya..and the best thing is the cost included the meal for yr breakfast hor.. nice broad space with alOt of new songs as well..can sing for 3 hours lo.. enjoyable... after that we went to have our 2nd meal cos we still aren't that full either.. after that we then shopped around.. buy some clothings and then leg aching liao.. went to sat down at the cafe chatting and resting till 6pm++ in the evening then we then travelled back to Singapore.. then went to meet Charissa at Causeway point after she have knock 
off.. we have Yoshinoya for our dinner... then... haiz... why haiz..? next time then say when the right time is here ba. *shsss* =p .. sO don't asked me why I don't wan to say ok.. it a secret being kept in me as promised... Hmm.. Dinner
off.. we have Yoshinoya for our dinner... then... haiz... why haiz..? next time then say when the right time is here ba. *shsss* =p .. sO don't asked me why I don't wan to say ok.. it a secret being kept in me as promised... Hmm.. Dinner + Jo & Me +
time.. Jo msg me that if I want the minnie mouse can go to the TimeZone there get it.. so up we have went... wow.. *hehe* mouth can't closed... I got my fIrst 
Minnie Mouse character from the "Eflin Catacher lei.. and the day ended... Off my way travelling back To mY Dear Dear home Sweet Home...+ sMile +
+ Charissa & Me +
Minnie Mouse character from the "Eflin Catacher lei.. and the day ended... Off my way travelling back To mY Dear Dear home Sweet Home...+ sMile + + Charissa & Me +
* stOry tO be cOntinue*
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 6:00 PM
♥ ♥
Today so fast already Sunday.. but the happy thing is that though it already Sunday.. I also don't feel anything sian.. Cos from this week.. I gonna rest for another 2 weekdays
for the National Day lei... So will only start work on the Wednesday.. wow. 2 days to enjoy and relaxed myself.. *hehe* Dear Dear was so nice.. cooked egg for my beehoon for my breakfast..after that he bring me to Northpoint there for a stroll... then my buttock itch again... have went to the *Timezone* there to see what are the cute toys available... then I saw the pair of Mickey and Minnie Mouse In kOdOmO suIt really looked very cute.. then I went to catch the Minnie Mouse.. after a few tries.. I still not able to get it.. which almost.. but dropped it. this was the most disppointed moment to see.. well.. I also have gave up cos it have been caught by a little girl.. so.. I also don't want to waste Money on the others which I don't like it at all...but somehow still have spent $9 on this game and still good is that I got a consolation price for it lo.. *A Pair of Donald Ducks* no fish got prawn also good better than Empty Handed hOme... *hahaha* just like Ray & Me... haiz..I think gonna spent alot for this month again.. already can forcast.. how Much I have got to prepare liao le.. cos you know what.. BinchOtan 2 come out and now alot of people gonna snatch in the market now... heard that it have been really a hot sale in the market.. that it have to be reloaded again and again for the tigam lovers... Including Yuting and me... *hehe* have been waiting since then.. for our another set of collection.. so of course to collect all these .. you must prepare to spend alot to get the whole set... But now Xingyu also have told me.. that he have seen people posted a set sell at $46 which was kinda expensive too lo.. haiz really headache... don't knOw how I want to collect it either...Somemore nOw alot of people snatching to tigam over it.. Scare by the time I go down.. It all gone liao... website also no more.. end up I will get nothing.. then how..?
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 8:35 AM
♥ Sunday, August 7, 2005♥
*`*`*`*An Outing*`*`*`*`*
Hmm.. What did I do today?? well when we have woke up, we get ourselves dolled up and prepare to go maLaysIa as usual.. then we also meet up with Christina and her boyfriend together.. But this time we also didn't stayed there for very long either.. cos we have wanted to rush to Esplanade there view the Fireworks which started at 8pm.. but somehow I have missed it.. because I went to Orchard instead
for my Card Photo taking.. as it was a belated date of my 5th Year Anniversary..We have never failed to take every year. so even late. also want won't want to miss it..After that it was quite late.. and we are not able to view the fireworks.. we just spent our time shopping and etc... then head to Marina Square to meet up with them for dinner... but was so crowded there.. so have decide to eat at somewhere else.. around Pasir Panjang before heading to Mt Faber.. have a drinks and chit chat there till late midnight then go home... so tiring when reached home.... opps... why the picture so darked with the flashed on??? hmm.....I just think that I can't see anything..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:00 PM
♥ Saturday, August 6, 2005♥
Have waited for so long for just this Friday to come.. cos the long weekend gonna be here... have actually thinking of what am I going to do on Monday as Dear Dear will not be available to company me.. scare I will be alone at home doing nothing...but then Jo have msning me.. asking whether I want to go Malaysia with them for a session of Ktv and walking around.. cos they all also will be having shut down too... at least I know now there a program awaiting on Monday.. instead of staying at home bored.. *thinking* hmm... still thinking whether to come back on the Monday since it deducted from out own account..but someone told me that .. "Jolin.. it ok you don't need to come back since there nothing for you to do here.." so... means that I don't need to come back even I want to.. unless boss said so... *abit sad* began to feel something today..maybe after what that someone have said.. I think I have to get prepare and lookout for a new better happy job for myself..
The most happy time for me in the office was during lunchtime.. cos today Jaime have drove Alex and me to ECP as planned on Monday... *haha*.. then we have the Famous Duck Noodle there... the food still not too bad.. except for the soup.. really abit too bland liao.. hmm... have spend about 1hr + of slow lunch time there..then it so sian have to go back to office for another 1/2 of the day again.. *haiz*.. nothing to do there.. just take out some of my notes and go through... and also have change the blog skin of my blog.. hehe... *A lonely Angel sitting alone* sometimes it just looked like me.. when I feel no one with me.. finally the day ended.. I rushed for my school as usual.. after that I headed home.. and Xingyu told me.. they going to "DBL O" for a drink.. make me itch to go down too.. but when I heard Kenneth said will be there around Midnight.. *haiz* I give up.. cos it was just too late already.. even though Dear Dear have let me go. I also sian liao.. so decide not to go instead.. and too bad.. Rickson also don't want to go.. cos don't have the clubbing mood.. so.. me also sianned.. be Dear Dear good baby and stay home with him instead...
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 3:38 PM
♥ Friday, August 5, 2005♥
Haiz.. I was sad.. cOs this morning when I have read Jo's blog.. I was hmm.. think back of the past when I used to be in Pioneer... the fun and friends, laughter and etc...seeing how Jo have said.. she was being startled by Violet. Which made me think back.. that last time she used to crack so much jokes with us.. and one thing for sure.. always like to beat people up.. Violet = Violent lo.. so she have the habit of doing that.. almost those people whom she knOw also have tasted her power liao *hehe* but the funny thing is.. u won't get offended at all.. cos see her.. u knOw de liao.. so far people only complained she siao.. she violent but never said she hateful.. still so close and have fun together.. *haiz* missed their laughter and chatting so much..used to intercom each other to gossip when we are free..nOw.. can't see each other liao.. don't knOw free anot.. haiz.. so now also seldom call them up even when free.. but still hope can find sometimes for a gathering too.. hmm.. just hope they never forget me either.. feeling was great..cos no need to go school today but neither want to go anywhere, just will Go Suntec with Yuting and see the "Binchotan" Series 2 have launched already ma..have been waited for long since heard in June.. until now still hasnt see it at all.. why so slow de ??
Finally after work.. both of us really have left on the dote.. boom..off we went to Suntec.. *hehe*... but then it was really a disappointment.. expected.. *haiz*.. Binchotan really havent arrive.. sO nothing else we can do.. we have went to eat dinner at the *Sakae* after then rushed home for the Superstar show.. End of the day..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:32 PM
♥ Thursday, August 4, 2005♥
Since yesterday have been hearing company want to shut down for the Holiday on the 08 Aug for a long weekend for us.. but was still not able to comfirmed until today boss finally have sent a email saying there will be a official "Shut Down" for the day .. wow.. we were so happy to knOw about it.. and it was supposed to be when we no need to come work throughout the long weekend.. but then just too bad.. it will deduct the leave from our own account and so sian thing is that .. I am new to this company and not yet comfirmed either. so I don't have any leave to let them deduct. only my money then.. **sian ah** but better still it better than coming back to work.. cos I really sick of the feeling which I am dragging myself here.. but thou I am on leave.. too bad is that My Dear Dear won't be with me to spend the long weekend.. so what am I going to do? can anyOne help me think? *hehe* No more ideas of what to do..
Today mood still not too bad.. have went to Bugis for my lunch with my colleagues..as well as shopping.. shoick right.. Got 2 Hrs of lunch time to use it slowly.. so happy is that I have bought the disc I want it so much since after I have heard it advertised on the T.V last night..+ Exotic Mood + *very anxious to listen*.. hmm.. Price really reasonable.. 3 CD for the price of 1 @ $18.90.. *so quite worth it... but now really have to think it properly before buying anything because I have to save the money.. *haiz*.. hmm.. going to knock off soon.. so happy.. but Yuting won't be having dinner with me cos she have to meet her ex-colleague.. *so sad*...never mind ..i can go on one day diet.. since I have eaten too much just now.. can't get to any fatter.. I scare..*being fat*.. so have to get back to work liao..
Thinking of that date today ... is my 5th Year Anniversary with Dear Dear liao le.. yet.. we can't spend the time together cos both of us have to go to school after work.. nevertheless.. we didn't said miss the moments.. just have postpone the date to Saturday.. so still not that sad.. and we sure will never give it a miss either.. as it only comes once a year... well.. so long as our HEART stands..anyday also the same for us.. however.. after work.. i also never go to school cos there something crops up.. so I meet Tan H.Y at Orchard as he so nice to company me.. otherwise me alone.. I be blured.. *hehe* Told my Dear about it.. so he was not angry with me either.. cos he knOw that I can't be alone.. and I am sure.. he also be sad that he can't spend the time with me.. it ok de.. after the matter have done.. I find it really so sian.. but it was nice.. that I got a dinner treat from Xingyu cos he have offered to do so de.. *yum yum* went to Wisma Indochine there for dinner.. till about 10+pm then decided to go home.. so tired.. and also indigestion as well.. *maybe not the right time to eat so much at that time*
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:30 PM
♥ Wednesday, August 3, 2005♥
This day wasn't a very good day for me.. haiz..I was actually very happy to have heard that Company planning to shut down on Monday for the National Day... then another good news came in was actually have something to brighten up my mood.. which is a last minute trip planning to KL again..but then still have to wait for final comfirmation whether able to go anot.... but then somehow the reply came back wasn't a good news at all.. before this news come back.. I was so happy and eagerly to find hotel for booking.. thinking that I have a chance to go for my 3rd trip to KL again.. *sob sob* but too bad... last minutes cropeds up le.. So I have to cancel everything and then stayed in Singapore for the long weekend.. I thought I can have the good time to spend my 5th Anniversary at KL with Dear Dear.. then my hope have crashed liao le.. so sad.. then we aren't able to go anywhere either... what to do for the long weekend lei..? Come to think of it now... I am still feeling sad lei... *cry*...
Somemore the next thing is that.. Why I am so unlucky today..? have heard such bad news liao.. then never mind.. I almost tripped and gonna fall.. but lucky I am alright.. and yet.. my Favourite mug cap (Piglet) have fallen to the ground and broke..wow.. my heart oso pain when i saw it.. I was shoick a little while.. before back to normal.. thinking why I am not able to catch it.. *sobby*.. no more liao le.. nw the cup not perfect anymore and also no way to find another same one again.. until now.. still thinking of the broken pcs on the floor.. really so sad.. Mood somehow really very bad today...
After work... I went to Jurong Point to meet up with Tan E.H for dinner at the Fiesta.. whenever I have dinner there.. I always think back of the past where I used to work together with my other Buddies and still glad that till now we are still contacting each other for gather and still as close as last time.. still glad most of them are still there... the fun we had and etc.. hmm.. really can't forget.. however.. back to the reality..*hehe*.. then so nice of TanEH.. he be the boss again and treat me eat dinner.. *haha*... but then after that we have went to coffee Bean for a chit chat over a nice coffee... and so shy.. he have never forget my present and passed me a bag which he have bought from the Bangkok Trip.. so good... received a treat and a present from him... makes me more cheered up le... after that time to go home and watch my favourite Hong Kong show.. end of the night.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:30 PM
♥ Tuesday, August 2, 2005♥
Hmm.. the whole Monday.. was really a very bored and sick day for me.. as usual.. ve to leave for the damn sick company to work.. always dragging myself to work and that it... and finally it the 1st August, it my 2nd month working in this company liao.. do you considered it fast ma?? well.. i don't think so.. I am still struggling myself waiting for another one month will be my whether to be comfirmation of the staff here anot.. I really don't know.. despite the condition I am in now.. imagine still can use office hour to update my blog.. will knOw how free I can be liao.. this whole week really gonna be a slow moving week again.. hmm..never mind.. i braced myself up and look forward to another weekend again.. going to go out with my Dear.. to celebrate my 5th Year Anniversary on the 3rd Aug 2005.. haiz.. times flies..
But I was also angry this day Cos idiot call and then he angried with me for not answering his phone.. well.. I was really busy la.. so.. hmm.. never answer lo.. then I also don't want to quarelled much with him and just hang the phone.. then end the night and I went to bed liao.. so tiring...
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 2:45 PM
♥ Monday, August 1, 2005♥
This day wasn't really a very nice day to go out.. cos the weather really very hot.. and made us sweating all over.. *phew*... we waked up in the afterNoon.. then we washed up and then set off to Malaysia since we didn't make it On Saturday... but it isn't as nice as it to be on Saturday.. cos is really very hot under the hot sun.. but still it ok.. manage to make it through.. then we went to City Square there watched movie "The Island".. hmm.. was a very nice and trilling show.. I never expect it to be that nice when I am so reluctant to watch it in the first place. *hehe*.. after the show was already 4pm++..so went to Holiday Plaza.. and shopped my shoes then it time to go home.. cos both of us was really very tired caused by the hot weather... quickly just get on our feet .. and head back home for our dinner..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 12:30 PM
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