*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 10:23 PM
which make me feel so listless look now. Then I find myself do not have enough sleep at all. *sobSob*. Actually why do I feel so sleepy every now and then. Somemore I turned in early at around 11+. I just hope the time will get over soon. Even today I know I am meeting *JiaHui* for a chilling also seems like doesn't motivate me from waking up for the day. Maybe I am really so tired that it just doesn't bother me about anything. I don't have the mood to talk much to anyone either. I know the moment I talked, it all those negative reply appeared in my brain. I might have provoked someone accidently. But I really very sorry. I don't have the good mood to talk to anyone. I feel my mouth feel so painful all over with the hoarse pain inside my throat, the bitten mark by myself yesterday.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:32 PM
Today is the first day of the "Kaka" month in my Theory.. !! Erm .. *Scary Movie* - My friend said it is my baby language.. I dare not state the golden word.. Cos when i think or talk about it. I will have a bad nightmare rolling in my head. On this particular month.. I am always feel very scare especially asking me to go home late or even stay out late and the worst part is.. This will be going on for 2 month continusly starting from 25th July ~ 21st Sept. Really very long see the date like this.. Last time I was so scare that I am so happy when there are people to send me home to my door.. But when I don't someone to company me.. KnOw what ?? I ask my family member to come downstair take me home.. Very funny and horrible rite..? I also don't know why I am so timid until like this even my conscience is clear. !! Maybe my mum la!! I think she carried a baby girl born in the year 1982 of Mouse instead of the Year of Dog..*HaHa* .. Year of mouse.. ? I think don't have hor.. Whenever I told my friend about this chinese thingy, they all laugh at me with the unbelievable mindset cos they don't believe I appeared to be like this .. I always appeared to be so naughty, so brave, or even dare to joke around but cant anticipate me acting like this. But to me now. I think the feeling like no more. As usual I will still travel home alone when the time only 9pm+ or so . then I dare to go home alone la. ! if after midnight.. Call for help liao .. hahaha.. But as times goes by, this kind of feeling slowly vanishing in me. Somehow no longer have feel that this is anything particular to me. It just part of the month every year that we have to go through. Or somehow I have grown up ?? more independant!! Nevertheless..All I wish for is I will be fine and happy in every starting of the month and ending of the month.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:40 PM
Another relaxing Sunday time for me to rest home. A day suppose to be a revising tIme for me the whole day. But it seems like there not much time for me to rest enough and revise. Woke up pretty late today around 1pm+ and then went to have our brunch and walked around till about 330pm then reach home. Just taking a short break, then iron the clothes for him, time pass very fast, I have to prepare myself and go to meet up with my relatives to celebrate my *Grandma* birthday which fall on the 24th July. By the time when I am ready to go was already 620pm when I suppose to reach at 6pm there instead and so what ?? I was late le la.. when I reached there was already 640pm.. and guess what again..? all of them waited for the 2 of us to start the dinner.. *Shy* have to make all the elders to wait for us ... really very embarrassed especially when all of them looked at us when we walked towards the table. Hmm.. Somehow I can feel my whole face was burning red and dare not talk aloud. Just quietly find my place to sit and wait for the dishes to serve.. But somehow the dinner was quite a pressurise one for me. Maybe because the whole family all there except for my own Mother & Sibling with me ba. Only all my uncles and Aunties. I feel like so odd one out.. *Sob Sob* Luckily the dinner never really take up alot of times cause they are mostly those babies need to turn in early for the night especially for those small children whom have to attend lesson the next day. About 9pm or so, we have started to travel home lo. So dead beat that just cant wait to climb into bed and turn in early.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 10:58 PM
Basically, my weekend was rather a busy times for me.. My plan for today was to gO Malaysia in the
morning till evening then head to go Mr and Mrs Soh house to celebrate their 1st baby Boy "Su Zhao Heng" one month. From morning till at night going here and there. Woke up around 11am+, washed up and then head for Malaysia as usual for our brunch as well as buy some gameboy cartridge again. However I try to search "Monopoly" game but to no avail cos it was such a long time games in the market, wherby they did not keep nor ordered anymore stock since then. So was like antique liao le. *haha* Nevertheless.. I also die die must bought at least one game home then I be happy cos I don't wish to gO home empty handed for nothing. However after the brunch and bought the game, was still pretty early to get our of Malaysia. So we have wanna plan to gO for a movie to kill the time but just too bad there were no more nice show so no choice we decided to head home instead of roaming around headlessly and indeed it was really more relaxing to stay home instead, have a nice bath and playing game till around 5pm+ then we went to their house. So happy to see most of them there . I so missed them as so long never see them le with the catch up and etc... so enjoyed the moment but happy time always don't last long, about 9pm most of us have to leave and will only meet up again next time. After that, out of the blue, Ray have bring me to Geylang eat durian and taking a stroll there till the night ended.
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As usual, Ray bought me to Malaysia for the day.. However this tIme it was me to insist to go instead of him.. Cos In my mind, was I want to buy alot of game and a cover for my new gameboy. So was kinda excited today... wanna get in faster and then buy the games.. The day wasn't that bad with the congestion.. so in no time.. we have already cleared the two customs. Then we went to HOliday Plaza to search and ask for the game cartridges. Finally manage to get 3 cartridges games I want. *Sim Bursting Out*, Harvest MOon* & Mario Advanace 3* and also a cute Hello Kitty Casing. After our lunch.. We went to Debrau JusCo again to walk and shop the whole day.. Manage to catch the show at 510pm * Pirate and the Carribean*, seeing the preview and the show is really getting different feeling.. It was the preview attracted me wanting to see the show, end up was kinda a disappointment to see such a show neither funny nor adventures.. The funny part and the adventures part doesnt match to be like this as show in the poster. Especially the Jack Captian, the face like someone who can do big things.. However he ended up as a crazy useless bum instead. I think William Tuner much more handsome and capable than him ba.. I won't want to watch the 2nd times for it even got the DVD on hand. *haha*. Doesnt interest me .. After the show, was already 8+ to dinner time, Ray have bought me to a new Place for a nice BBQ Stingray, Satay and Prawn Omelette, Kang Kong and Pig organ soup.. *Yum Yum*... All are my favourite foods and of course I enjoyed it very much with the background sang song to entertain and it time to head home after that..
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 12:28 PM
It another 1 year older for me. How did I really spend it..? Alot of people also asking me how did I spend on this day.. The answer I have for you all is that I did not celebrate my birthday on this actual day at all neither in advance cos I did not specially apply any leave for the day either.. so I have just spent my day at work. . But I still so happy even I know this is my special day cos I shouldnt be sulking on this day neither. Stay cheerful and happily as there also nothing major thing for me to sulk with.. Boss also never ill treat me neither. *haha* However early in the morning, I have been receiving wishes from my friends who are so nice to remember that it my birthday today.. Especially for some who birthday have actually over, and yet I forget to wish them .. *So Sorry* and hope I won't be able to forget next year.. *haha*. When I reached the workplace, received *Tan EH* call to ask me go down to meet him awhile.. In my heart already knew he have bought something to surprise me too.. else he also won't come down to my workplace just to meet for awhile and headed for his work.. Just as I expected, he have passed me a small accessory to decorate my handphone. *So Thanks to you* for the trouble as well.. However this day is still a very busy day for me to do the unfinished things first before the day end. After the work, there isn't anywhere I can go neither as I have to attend lesson as usual on Friday ma. No choice, exams coming soon.. so have to buck up for this Business Statistic.. Just a very normal birthday for me this year.. Hereby Thanks to those who have bought the present for me.
Loading Of my Birthday gift
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 4:59 PM
One more day to my Birthday 14July.. Today I am on half day leave. But it isn't a great day after work at 12pm.. Travelling here and there make me feel so sick.. The feeling is like.. really made me don't even feel like going anything on this day.. JUst want to take a nap.. but I can't. The tIme reached, my heart was pumping heart, feeling so anxious of facing the people, walked into the room,with so many people looking at me like an alien.. but I simply ignored the eyesight.. and telling myself.. Nope.. this isn't the place for me.. so I letting myself down and give it all the negative that I won't want to be here anymore... After the event, I have board the bus bringing me tunring round and round the whole day for the ride spinning.. *haha* it isn't funny.. Cos I was in an unfamiliar area.. where I don't know where is the interchange and MRT located. So I dare not dozed off even though I am so tired. I saw the track, yet it not the place to alight, so when I missed the track, I get panicked... I saw more people boarding as well as alot of people alighting but why it ain't my turn to alight? I am just like a silly girl waiting someone to bring me to the destination. *Gosh Where is my bus-stop lei*.. After all.. I just follow people to alight the bustop even though I am not sure, to my amazed, the MRT is just at the opposite of my sight.. Feel like in heaven ... hahaha... Finally I can get myself relaxed awhile in the train and headed to Woodland Causeway Point.. While waiting for my friend to go KTV, I went to shop alone.. till the tIme finally arrive at 645pm.. my friend arrived..So happily after the dinner, off we went to kTv.. enjoyed ourselves throughout the nIght.
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 11:39 AM
Erm, today another relaxed day for me.. It seems like I don't have any much work on hand at the moment for me to do or clear or even run like mad. Is it because I have almost cleared most of the outstanding work .. or anything else.. I also don't know.. However I also never want to think and bother so much about it. I just wanna do my work and then get it done.. and go home peacefully.. A surprise for me received for my birthday present. Actually I already informed beforehand that Chua will send me a gift by post for my birthday.. but never expect that it comes earlier before my birthday. Thanks Chua.. have send such a nice gift *Miniature Estee Lauder Perfume set*. So nice right.. just nice for me .. so that I can change to alot of fragrance on different days.. *haha*. Hmm at least it something to cheer me up abit.. I know I should be happy cos someone sent me a gift.. However today I was also asked to stay overtime to help finish up some work before leaving.. At this moment 7.10pm.. I did not start anything for the system loading yet.. cos I also don't know waiting for what moment then can start to do the work.. I really feel like going home soon.. so tired. what time can I go home..? 8pm?? *oh no *
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Why I said it relaxing lei .. ?? haha.. cos hor.. I only gonna work for half day morning and I be able to leave for the rest of the day... Took the leave to go out with my mum for a walk and get my matter to be done.. Though I feel mentally tired, but somehow I think a shopping can somehow destressed abit of my mind. moreover.. definetely it will be much more better than staying back to work.. but don't know why.. I am not able to enjoy it for long.. cos i suddenly feel so sick and with headache. sO not able to continue the walking either, we just headed home after dinner.. Didn't manage to get anything, so feel nice that haha.. I did not waste any money for the outing.
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*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:50 PM
Erm.... Finally another working day have come to an end and it going to be weekend soon.. So great.. today feeling for work was quite a relieved for me. Erm.. got a new task to do which is something new to me.. cos I have never ever do it before since I have been here for over one year . The reason is because if you have to experience this thing, means there something wrong with your part returned from customer for gating problem. Somemore my problem was kinda a tedious thing to do..Suppose to be a ROHS Free Part found Lead in it.. End up the lots of over thousand pieces have to reject, scaped and doing rework so as to salvage the part and save as much cost as we can ... So I was asked to do out the REWORK FORM to request for production to do the rework.. However I really didn't had the chance to come across until today..So of couse it another lost for me again.. She did not really tell me what to do..but have passed the manual to me which explained what is going on only and not the steps of how you going to do it.. In short !! the Book is useless!! so what the hxxx ?? Give me that book which doesn't tell me what to do at all after I have used the time to read through cos after circumstances, I prefer to be more independant myself.. But why it doesn't allow me to do so at all..? In the end, I still have to go through my colleague to help me with it... one by one... but lucky it isn't a difficult thing to do it.. and I also feel more happier that the help which I have got wasn't like the past few days... or maybe because they know this is the first time I am doing it? So even dont want to bother to help also no choice, Cos I will still bug them that I don't know how to do it.. Please teach me..!! *haha* will get them irriated till they give up.. So with my determination to complete this JOB on the same day.. I choose to stay behind later to leave at 7pm to complete it... So glad that I did it..... ! *clap* at least tomorrow go work not another thing piled up... *haiz* things are still bothering me as long as I haven't get over it.. My heart is quite firm with the decision after I have heard some comment and planning. Another 1hr to 7th July 2006. It the date which I am sitting in front of the PC to standby for booking my ROM DATE. *haha*.. very kiasu.. I can't miss this date cos a good date difficult to come by for both person, especially it was specially choosen by my Love Grandma.. you don't know la.. that time she even more anxious than me.. *hehe* just can't wait for my big day arrival!! Abit tired with the eyes .. feeling drowsy .. ok .. Endure another one more hour ... still can make it.. *The Night End*
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:13 PM
with me during work time too.. anyway My blog sure like it .. show that I hyperactive to it.. Have just got a meeting over just now.. and know that I going to have additional work to add on me again.. yeap.. going to do multi task.. taking over alot of hassle work implemented WEF today.. It really just another shit job to me.. I just take it since it Comes, there also no choice to reject either... Something bothering me and my mind.. until now still keep bothering me as long as the day I did not get it settle, I will never able to get over it.. however most of the factor have also been settle among ourselves.. at that moment, it won't be much problem not for long either too la.. *twO hAnd Cross* Praying in the Name of the God.. *God Bless Me*
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:38 PM
Just daily update for today.. Erm.. until now.. I have been blogging everyday and updating things happening about me..Actually I like the feeling of blogging everyday as long as my PC is available for me to do so.. and even at this time at work, it is not because I am so free to do blogging..but it just something which I couldn't keep in my mind without letting out at all.. Life here are feeling lonely in both physically and mentally.. Though help are still there for me.. But the pain in me will not be able to cure... The feeling was great after saying out.. It seems like I can just talk to you, I will feel better in the heart and my soul.. I won't feel heartbreak neither do I feel that moody.. It only when I have talk to you, you know as in myself know how to cheer myself up and will think think of the positive to get rid of the negative. *haha* Sound miracle..You gonna think is who..? Talking about my blog.. My beloved Blog.. I think the only things who really knOw and understand what I m thinking about, or what I m going through, My thoughts, Happiness, misery and etc.. all you know it so well.. Whatever I said.. You won't scold me.. you won't make me cry.. you won't tell me it is wrong but neither you will tell me it is right.. this is your weakpoint.. cos you don't know how to comment.. After talking to you.. You still left me to think about it myself..*haha*.. My day still feeling ok .. After solving one thing by one thing, my load become more and more lighter each day.. Eventually now is better than last time.. if you know.. I missing for a period for my blog... Thanks to those who have help me clear my doubts, give me advise, give me courage, tell me what I should do... especially must dare to open my golden mouth.. open up my heart just to do what I am not clear off.. Yes.. you won't die, get abit scolded but at least after it done, you feel everything it still worthwhile.. People don't know you.. but you must know yourself. *Thanks to those who have been a great help for you advise, you know who you are.. * However though I did not have a bad time earlier as stated above, but it doesnt't applied the same situation in the evening before I am packing to go home.. Have thought that today not much things happened, and have almost cleared up those pending work, show abit relieved sign.. however things are always never let me go.. Just before I want to go home thinking that I should be able to go home at about 615pm happily to have my dinner.. *yum Yum* but too bad.. I just had to leave at 7pm instead because of some undone work which I really can't remember what actually is it.. So have to. stay behind to think what is the matter before leaving .. *stress* Didn't manage to get home with a happy mind.. instead the mood came back again even until now when i am home.. I just can't help thinking about it.. cos other than work, i faced even more something which i no longer don't wish to think of it anymore.. the more I go and think, the more tears I going to shed... *tired* really tired, just feel myself so tired.!
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*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 5:57 PM
I am very tired cos I have the most outing today from here and there.. one end to the other end, yes above listed are my destination for today.. Great rite...? Starting from 3pm from home to 11pm reached home....... I am able to get to so many place at one shot.. Superb!! Haha.. Don't know why we are feeling headless for the place we are going .. even dinner also have problem to settle in.
. Initial plan was to have dinner at East Coast Park, and taking a stroll beside the beach, but that too bad, we can't find any food that we want to eat at all.. SO headed to Parkway Parade i
nstead. After walking around for a few hours, then settle down at a cafe call "Gao Ji Ramen" , but it wasn't a very nice dinner either.. But guess better than nothing.. SOmehow this place wasn't a nice place to shop either, cos there limited to the shop for me to buy.. especially clothes, I am controlling myself not to buy anymore clothes for these 3 mths till I be going to Bangkok fOr a shopping spree.. much more cheaper and good deal..At least I also did not go home empty handed, bought a story bOOk and some haircare products.. Night fall, we just went to roam around the whole of the East area since we are seldom here... The whole place was like so crowded with the lightning and people.. made me so excited that don't wish to go home so early either, but that too bad that I have a very lazy dear whom doesn't really like to stay out late for nothing better to do .. Finally our last place was going to Malaysia, just to had the oil tank filled up and then back home. ("'(@_@)"')
*~*BeaNie Diary*~*@ 11:42 PM
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