The reasons made me missing for sometimes was all about my work. Seeing computer makes me so scare and phobia of the work I have on hand. I have no mood.. simply no mood to do anything, I was so stressed up with alot of things to do, alot of undone work made my days really sad, moody and stressful. I can't do anything, I get reprmanded, what I can do , I try hard to memories it, try hard to recall, try hard to do it, if I can't do it, I breakdown and cried. Till idea popped into my head, I dried my tears , sit to my place, and attempted to do it again till finally have get over it one by one, from 10 jobs, to 5jobs than reduce to none. when I finally get it done, i laughed and cried for all these while, the kind of pain, misery feeling in me slowly load off.